Living in the closet and struggling.
Hello,
I (31, AFAB) have been exploring my gender identity over the last year and have started coming out to people I trust as gender fluid. So far, it's gone really well and people have been supportive. However, no one I feel I can talk to is nonbinary or gender-fluid themselves and it's starting to get lonely.
I am also not out to my parents who I currently live with. Partly because they're older and need some additional support but also because I am trying to build up my creative career (I'm an actor) and not having to worry about bills in this economy is actually really helpful.
I don't know how my parents will react so I'm hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. I'm nervous about my mum in particular as she's said some unsavoury things about trans and non binary people in the past.
All of that means I'm out in some spaces and not others and it's feeling really heavy right now. I don't know if I want anything in particular, I guess I just want a space I can breathe and feel less lonely.