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I was talking to my friend and accidentally outed myself as an age regressor while rambling and she said she supports it and is ok talking to me in that headspace!!!!!!! :DD

BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE, I DO NOT DO ANY SORT OF DRUGS IN THIS LIFE, JUST A MEMORY I HAD, DON'T WORRY!!

>!OK so I was dreaming and I was my kin and at some point (unaware of the sequence of events that occurred to get to that point) I got ahold of a needle?? maybe?? and next thing I knew my balance was so off I fell like 3 times walking to my bathroom in the dream </3 I'm gonna just assume this is a kin memory because i don't know how to explain it but it just. It has the memory feelings. Not the most fun memory though, made me feel like I had 0 control over myself and I didn't like it. !<

bleh, I hate memories </3 now I'm back to my complex feelings about if I hate or miss my source gulps

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Kinfirming Dylan, Nam-gyu, AND wind archer. I'm on a roll guys!!! Wow!! Please help me there are too many now my brain wont be able to keep track and I hate keeping notes </3 currently almost done finishing up new pronouns cc pages for them because I like to do that before I post

>!I just wanna go home. My only safespace and all I think of as home when I regress is long gone and has been for nearly 4-6 years maybe?? When I'm little I think about it so much more and then I get upset and frustrated because I cant go home everyone is gone D: sorry for the sadness I just am sad right now!<

I decided that I would make my kins and sourcemates in tomadochi life so I can see my kins and my sourcemates interact >o< so far im still in tutorial mode though, so I've only made my brother </3 -⚔️☁️

Today is mothers day and my friend raised me practically so I consider her my mama and when I think of the word mama she is my first thought so I drew her something and she REALLY REALLY LIKED IT!! >o< She has it as her pfp AND she told me she feels maternal over me!! Im so happy!!

I was listening to songs and remembered my first time fighting a demon + spending time with Yui. First memory is not a fun memory, but it's still something. Better than nothing. Atleast there was a good one too.

>!Yui was alive during the actual fight, I think. I remember the fight lasted a long long time, and by the time it was done my bones ached and my muscles trembled. I think my brain still thought I could save him, but I was too exhausted to manage the effort. I felt bad.!<

The good memory next!! I remember watching Yui cook sometimes. He was harsh, but he seemed calmer when he did work like that. It was nice to see him relaxed. It made me happy.

i just wanted to ramble -⚔️☁️

Some part of my brain is screaming at me that sitting still and doing nothing even for a few minutes is wrong. I should be doing something, but there is nothing to be done so sadly I have to fight with my brain </3

It's like I practically have to force my brain to consider itself a human being worthy of rest (A bit exaggerated, but that's how it feels kind of?). It's not like I do nothing. I practically am doing a job all day, just not the kind I'm used to.

Shifting is torture (exaggerated) -❤️⚔️

I thinkk I regress a little when I shift as Mizin?? And its very scary, my brain is both telling itself very dehumanizing things but also I just want my mama and papa even if I never met them in source I dunno I just wish I was a normal kid in my source. It makes me sad. I like movies here, atleast. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer is silly -🩷🖤