u/FouriousBanana69

Looking to upgrade my storage to possibly my first ever NAS. I have some questions.

Looking to upgrade my storage to possibly my first ever NAS. I have some questions.

Hi, I'll try to keep it short here but I'm a bit lost on what I should do. The 2TB M.2 SSD I have in my desktop is practically full and for safety reasons I want to look into RAID and ZFS and all that, but I'm not sure if I even need a NAS or if just buying like two 4TB HDDs (one as a usually disconnected backup copy) and directly connecting them to my desktop is gonna be better for me. Let's say that my budget for all this is roughly 600 USD (converting from my local currency), though if I really have to I can surpass it a bit. I've been using Linux (Arch BTW) for almost 1.5 years now as my daily driver so I'm quite comfortable with the terminal if I have to use it (although I'd preferably use something at least slightly simpler for ease of use and less things going wrong due to human error; this should be a very stable system that "must" work always, so KISS please), and because of economical reasons I'm willing to buy most of this stuff used or repurpose some old laptop I already have. And yes, I want this to be a DIY project not only because it's probably cheaper but because I also want to have some fun tinkering with hardware, which I don't get to do often. My main usage for this larger storage (most of these I'm already doing on my aforementioned SSD):
•Storing my personal internet archival project for YouTube videos. I already have over 350GB and it's only going to grow faster. If I end up with a NAS then I'd also like to run yt-dlp and friends on it directly instead of my desktop (so that I can download stuff in the background while I do something else on my daily desktop or sleep).
•Storing backups of a bunch of different things, like my iPhone photos/videos or some password files or other important files to me I'd not want to lose.
•Storing photos/videos from my camera, which includes astrophotography (i.e. hundreds of RAW photos sequentially taken quite often)

My goals with this storage:
•I want to offload all (most) media files from my desktop SSD so that I can use it as fast temporary storage for some possible future personal programming projects or for astrophotography software that often requires hundreds of GB of free temporary buffer storage for processing photos.
•A more resilient and safe storage solution for archiving and preserving media (especially those YouTube archives). Right now if my SSD were to suddenly die, then I would essentially just permanently lose ~1.5 years of my personal life, plus all of those precious archives (because I have zero backup anywhere). I know RAID doesn't fully solve this, but I hope I'll be at least slightly more resistant to such a catastrophe in the future (either near or distant).
•It should be (relatively) simple. I don't care about all that homelab stuff I constantly read about (like "docker", "containers", virtualization, and all of that other lingo I barely understand), basically all I need is just a bigger and safer storage solution that I can easily access either from my local home network or directly via USB or something... and nothing more. I don't care about remote access, that's just a security breach waiting to happen - the less features, the smaller the attack surface and less things can go wrong. I also don't need encryption as this is supposed to be an archive that's easily retrievable if I literally die or something.

And finally, over time I've gathered some questions regarding all this:

  1. What OS? I've heard XigmaNAS is pretty good. Maybe something else? It should be relatively simple to use/setup and support RAID and ZFS, or something related.
  2. How to have automatic file corruption error correction in ZFS? (This question seems to be answerable without human help)
  3. Used or brand-new HDDs? (Note that these should ideally last quite a while)
  4. Internal or external HDDs? Are internal (more expensive?) HDDs any better for long-term storage?
  5. Best practices to make the HDDs last for as long as possible? Anti-vibration pads? Active cooling with some fan? Is it okay if I turn the HDDs on/off every day or few days, or will they wear out more slowly if I keep them on 24/7 (like in standby mode)? Should they be laid flat or vertically?
  6. What to do when (not "if") an HDD dies at some point (partially or completely)?
  7. Is it just enough if I get a used mini PC, connect the HDDs, and simply connect the PC to the local network via ethernet somehow? Is that really it? Or is there something more complex to it? Can I (preferably) directly connect my desktop to the NAS (like via USB or something) without the network involved, for security reasons?
  8. 3-2-1 rule. Is it worth it for my intended use case? Is it even achievable within budget?
  9. How to set up safe and automatic shutdown when mains power goes down and the UPS turns on? (This question also probably can be answered without asking Reddit, but I'm still asking just in case there's something I should know)
  10. Recommendations for how to run yt-dlp (or really any custom user program/script) on the NAS directly, while actually controlling what it's doing from my main desktop? Something less powerful than OpenSSH (for security ofc, and I also never used it in my life :) ). My plan currently is to have some python script automatically start upon boot on the NAS that constantly checks whether some empty directory on the NAS suddenly gets a file sent from my desktop with instructions on what to do (there's almost definitely a more elegant solution).

I'd greatly appreciate your help! Also, this wasn't at all short as how I said, but thanks for reading anyway!

Edit: Somehow forgot to mention that the usable/effective storage amount should be at an absolute minimum of 4TB, but really preferably 8TB or more.
Edit2: Fixed some markdown stuff

u/FouriousBanana69 — 5 days ago

My first successful Fibonacci program!

Learning from the tutorial at https://brainfuck.org/fib_explained.b, I decided to write my first more complicated Brainfuck (BF) program, without any real help during the time when I was writing it. It’s important to mention that I only partially read the tutorial a >few months ago, so apart from the critical core idea I wrote this entirely by myself.

What I found to be extremely useful is first writing down the general algorithm in a very detailed C-like language (that I sent in the pastebin link alongside the BF code) that I then translate line by line to BF. I also specified some values for the BF implementation details whose syntax I might use in some future abstracted BF language I might try to develop (I’ll see). I learnt a lot! And quite a rewarding experience :) Special thanks to Daniel B. Christofani for the amazing tutorials and contributions to this language in general!

Commentless version:

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Edit: code block formatting on the iOS Reddit app is horrendous, can’t seem to get it to work with proper indentation

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u/FouriousBanana69 — 28 days ago

And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.

Something that I've been wondering about is why I often have thoughts about really bad and crazy things happening. I mean like some crazy events like wars, people ending up in horrible situations (maybe also including me?), suicides, etc. It's not like I _actually_ want these things to happen, but it's really weirdly entertaining to think about. And I think I know why. I like _stuff_ to happen. For there to be more variance and unexpected and uncommon shit to happen. Breaking (horrible) records. Maybe this phenomenon has something to do with intrusive thoughts and the whereabouts. Yeah uhhh I don't know what else to add.

:3

Having a race of thoughts is _weird_. It's like I'm constantly thinking of different things every second. AKSJDHAJKFHAJKLGadhslgk. hjsakldfhl. I managed to get a new best time on that one parkour map in Hypixel Minecraft today. Am I crazy? These texts are supposed to be more official ig and at least a bit structured, what the fuck anm I doing rn????? Am I bored>? Man I've been holding my spacebar for a LONG time now. But ig I have faster repeat rate than most acverage people on Windows do, so this is a bit unfair. I don't know if I'm overreacting but I feel likle I'm almopst a bit drunk rn. Like, I had som ething similar going om yesterad in church when I was so utterly overheating from the high temps outside (like well over 30°C) that I felt limkme I started to lose consciousness or something, like if I was having a fever dream or somthing (ig in a way it kinda was, I think I was also sleepy at that poing but I don't remember too well).

Also one more thing I've noticedf semi-recently is that my mood and emotions seem to be heavily influinced by whatever I;'m looking/hearnig at (or just absorbing via my senses), like copying my parents (both consciously and subconsciously) or when watching someone on YouTube being all sad & whatever (this is super embarrassing for me to say but FUCK ti, I was curious and literally just watched the entirety of Zoink's last Society stream 6 and it kind threw off my mood A LOT, like, for the first few hours of today I was genuinely very productive and was motivated to do shit, but it all kinda fell aprt after watching that stream and "cop[ying" Zoink's mood which was obviously not ok). Started off my summer brake strong ig, but idk how it'll all go now. UHUHUHUHUHUHUH. I'm kinda lonely but also kinda tryuing to ignore that and just focus on improbing myselfm, that's going kinda well but I can't also ignore that feeling of loneliness somethimes. I've very recently (like 2-3 dayus ago?) read "Three Days of Happiness" and it changed my views of certain things in life (also I MIGHT be copying other's reviews now and it's starting to piss me off, like can't I fucking just make my own analyses and opinions for once for ~~g-d's~~ fucks sake??!!!!) :w. That authors afterword was very valiuble to me, to the point that I learnt a quote from it essentiall byu heart: "When misery is part of your identity, then not being miserable is not being yourself.". Don;'t seem to be fucvkinh learning from that quotet now huh.

~!@#$%^&*()_QWERTYUIOP{}|ASDFGHJKL:"ZXCVBNM<>?`1234567890- qwertyuiop[]\sdfghjkllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll;'

Zxcvbnm,./

Alternating my enter keyh is fun but it;s loud and I don;'t want to wake anyone uyp it's kinda late rn (22:44 CET) but also kinda isn't? I AM MUMBLING SO HARD RN WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?

235711131719232931374143475153596167 HEHEHEHE SIX sEVEN

(THAT WAS EMBARRASSING AS SHIT BUT NOT DELETING IT IG)

pi ≈ 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510589 I don't remember the rest cuz the last time I've recited the later parts was likme 2 weeks ago or somthingl, crazy how I can forget so much so quickly wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowow.

Recently I've been looking into CAN I STOP SAYING "RECENTLY I"VE [...]" ITS GETTING SO ANNOYUING WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCKING FUVCKK,

,

,

,

,

,

,

, SO: After watching that Zoink stream I got interested in the Wooting 80HE but after some considerations I've decided that it's just too expensive (but would be great for GD and beyond)

I;m wondering what God is thinking of all of this. Gosh darn it it seems that że za bardzo dobrze mi to nie idzie, pewnie łamie jakieś zasady w tej chwili ale chuj już nie wiem co powiedzieć szczerze, mam tylko nadzieję że się to wszystko dobrze skończy czy coś.

Hehe, praktycznie nigdyu nie pisałem po polsku w tych plikach, wydaje się bardz dziwne WTF. Brzmi bardziej fancy niż po angielsku ale to też zależy. Ogólnie wszystko po polsku wydaje się bardziej poważne niż po angielsku, już o tym myślałem for so much time and so many times że mnie to aż zaczyna wybrzydzać (beatina dead horse), ale to pewnie jakieś skomplikowane kulturowe różnice pomiędzy Polską i USA i te wszystkie pierdoły związane z tym.

STICK FIGURE ->

Syntax error;

#include <stdio.h>

int main( void )

{

(void)printf("Hello world!\\n");

return 0;

}

Jest to dla mnie takie trudne żeby pisać kod co jest jakoś bardzie skomplikowanyu (>100-200 linijek około) bo nie umimem po prostu na tyle tekstu na raz się patrzeć i dalej kaoś to rozumieć wtdf

I just checked my heart beat manually with a stop watch and it's like ~71 with maybe 3-5 BPMs of accuracy error in both directions. Seems fine? I don't know I started to feel not so ok (physically) in one moment and genuinely started to get scared in one moment and gort up but I maybe feel better now ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

You have to appreciate FOSS at some point man. Neovim (which is what I"m uson rn) is just an amazing piece of software I love it, too bad I don't have the FUCKING MOTIVATION to learn to customize it to my needs and turn it into a mini-IDE and finally ditch VSCodium (+ ditching an AUR dependency for more security) and embrace to Vim workflow (and maybe switching to Zsh for vim-like terminal instead of Bash) (I already have vimium on my browser so it's nicer there). Gosh darn it I feel like venting out to someone so hard rn and it oculd literally be myu parents or whatever nut I can only really do it in English and not in Polish and it JUST SUCKS SO FUCKING BAD LIKE WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE MY REALITY< WHERE I JUST HGAVE TO CONSTANTYL HAVE TO SUPRROESS MY ENGLISH-SELF AND ALL MY STRUGGLES IN ENGLISHJ AND MAINLY ONL<Y USE POLISH AS A BIT OF A MASKED APPERACNCE FOR PUBLIC AND JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

AND IT:"S NOT LIKE I CAN REALLY POST THIS FILE ONLINE (LIKE ON REDDIT) OR SOMETHING BECAUSE OF STUPID FUCKING EITHER CENSORSHIPL OR MY SORT OF OBSESSION (NOT REALLY) FOR INTERNET PRIVACY AND SHIT AND BECAUSE I PUT A LOT OF PERSONAL STUFF HERE I JUST CAN:"T POST ARHARHARHARHA> ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH WAIT< I KNOW - r/copypasta(s?) IT"S THE PERFECT PLACE< YEAH> EVERFYONE WILL THINK IT"S JUST SOME FABRICATED BULLSHIT FOR THE LOLS WHEN IT"S ACTUALLY JUST AN INSANE 15-YEAROLD LOSING HIS MIND IN THE NIGHT AND HAVING EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS AND JUST DFHAUIDLFHIOADLFHAIDLFH AI CAN "T PUT INTO WORS HERE THE EMOTIUONS I"M FELLING RIGHT NOW YOU JUST CANN"T COMP{REHEND OR MAYBE I"M BEING TO EGOISTICAL OR WHATEVER< WHAT THE FUCK ANM I TALKING ABOUT< THERE ARE PROBABLY MANY MORE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN FAR WORSE SITUATIONS (MENTALLY) THAN ME AND I"M JUST BEING OBERREACTIVE>

I'm scared.

And I'm scared to admit that.

*I'm scared of the unknown.*

And let it just end at that.

... no way I'm actually posting this, right? RIGHT???? (insert that one meme lol)

Fuck it. I don't feel like I have that much to lose anyway. And I honestly _just don't care_. I don't care if people are going to comment under this or what those comments will say, and I don't care if all this will just go unnoticed with 0 up/downvotes and that noone else will care. I don't care if this decision will negatively affect me (at least it feels like that right now). And I don't care if it's not humans, but bots, that will interact with this post.

All this to say yet another quote from that book called "Three Days of Happiness": "And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.", so I honestly expect nothing to come from this post, as, well... I certainly don't care.

(Actually this is a quote from The Beatles, but it got put in the book so whatever man)

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u/FouriousBanana69 — 2 months ago

And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.

[[29 VI 2026]|ER1]

Something that I've been wondering about is why I often have thoughts about really bad and crazy things happening. I mean like some crazy events like wars, people ending up in horrible situations (maybe also including me?), suicides, etc. It's not like I _actually_ want these things to happen, but it's really weirdly entertaining to think about. And I think I know why. I like _stuff_ to happen. For there to be more variance and unexpected and uncommon shit to happen. Breaking (horrible) records. Maybe this phenomenon has something to do with intrusive thoughts and the whereabouts. Yeah uhhh I don't know what else to add.

:3

Having a race of thoughts is _weird_. It's like I'm constantly thinking of different things every second. AKSJDHAJKFHAJKLGadhslgk. hjsakldfhl. I managed to get a new best time on that one parkour map in Hypixel Minecraft today. Am I crazy? These texts are supposed to be more official ig and at least a bit structured, what the fuck anm I doing rn????? Am I bored>? Man I've been holding my spacebar for a LONG time now. But ig I have faster repeat rate than most acverage people on Windows do, so this is a bit unfair. I don't know if I'm overreacting but I feel likle I'm almopst a bit drunk rn. Like, I had som ething similar going om yesterad in church when I was so utterly overheating from the high temps outside (like well over 30°C) that I felt limkme I started to lose consciousness or something, like if I was having a fever dream or somthing (ig in a way it kinda was, I think I was also sleepy at that poing but I don't remember too well).

Also one more thing I've noticedf semi-recently is that my mood and emotions seem to be heavily influinced by whatever I;'m looking/hearnig at (or just absorbing via my senses), like copying my parents (both consciously and subconsciously) or when watching someone on YouTube being all sad & whatever (this is super embarrassing for me to say but FUCK ti, I was curious and literally just watched the entirety of Zoink's last Society stream 6 and it kind threw off my mood A LOT, like, for the first few hours of today I was genuinely very productive and was motivated to do shit, but it all kinda fell aprt after watching that stream and "cop[ying" Zoink's mood which was obviously not ok). Started off my summer brake strong ig, but idk how it'll all go now. UHUHUHUHUHUHUH. I'm kinda lonely but also kinda tryuing to ignore that and just focus on improbing myselfm, that's going kinda well but I can't also ignore that feeling of loneliness somethimes. I've very recently (like 2-3 dayus ago?) read "Three Days of Happiness" and it changed my views of certain things in life (also I MIGHT be copying other's reviews now and it's starting to piss me off, like can't I fucking just make my own analyses and opinions for once for ~~g-d's~~ fucks sake??!!!!) :w. That authors afterword was very valiuble to me, to the point that I learnt a quote from it essentiall byu heart: "When misery is part of your identity, then not being miserable is not being yourself.". Don;'t seem to be fucvkinh learning from that quotet now huh.

~!@#$%^&*()_QWERTYUIOP{}|ASDFGHJKL:"ZXCVBNM<>?`1234567890- qwertyuiop[]\sdfghjkllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll;'

Zxcvbnm,./

Alternating my enter keyh is fun but it;s loud and I don;'t want to wake anyone uyp it's kinda late rn (22:44 CET) but also kinda isn't? I AM MUMBLING SO HARD RN WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?

235711131719232931374143475153596167 HEHEHEHE SIX sEVEN

(THAT WAS EMBARRASSING AS SHIT BUT NOT DELETING IT IG)

pi ≈ 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510589 I don't remember the rest cuz the last time I've recited the later parts was likme 2 weeks ago or somthingl, crazy how I can forget so much so quickly wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowow.

Recently I've been looking into CAN I STOP SAYING "RECENTLY I"VE [...]" ITS GETTING SO ANNOYUING WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCKING FUVCKK,

,

,

,

,

,

,

, SO: After watching that Zoink stream I got interested in the Wooting 80HE but after some considerations I've decided that it's just too expensive (but would be great for GD and beyond)

I;m wondering what God is thinking of all of this. Gosh darn it it seems that że za bardzo dobrze mi to nie idzie, pewnie łamie jakieś zasady w tej chwili ale chuj już nie wiem co powiedzieć szczerze, mam tylko nadzieję że się to wszystko dobrze skończy czy coś.

Hehe, praktycznie nigdyu nie pisałem po polsku w tych plikach, wydaje się bardz dziwne WTF. Brzmi bardziej fancy niż po angielsku ale to też zależy. Ogólnie wszystko po polsku wydaje się bardziej poważne niż po angielsku, już o tym myślałem for so much time and so many times że mnie to aż zaczyna wybrzydzać (beatina dead horse), ale to pewnie jakieś skomplikowane kulturowe różnice pomiędzy Polską i USA i te wszystkie pierdoły związane z tym.

STICK FIGURE ->

Syntax error;

#include <stdio.h>

int main( void )

{

(void)printf("Hello world!\\n");

return 0;

}

Jest to dla mnie takie trudne żeby pisać kod co jest jakoś bardzie skomplikowanyu (>100-200 linijek około) bo nie umimem po prostu na tyle tekstu na raz się patrzeć i dalej kaoś to rozumieć wtdf

I just checked my heart beat manually with a stop watch and it's like ~71 with maybe 3-5 BPMs of accuracy error in both directions. Seems fine? I don't know I started to feel not so ok (physically) in one moment and genuinely started to get scared in one moment and gort up but I maybe feel better now ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

You have to appreciate FOSS at some point man. Neovim (which is what I"m uson rn) is just an amazing piece of software I love it, too bad I don't have the FUCKING MOTIVATION to learn to customize it to my needs and turn it into a mini-IDE and finally ditch VSCodium (+ ditching an AUR dependency for more security) and embrace to Vim workflow (and maybe switching to Zsh for vim-like terminal instead of Bash) (I already have vimium on my browser so it's nicer there). Gosh darn it I feel like venting out to someone so hard rn and it oculd literally be myu parents or whatever nut I can only really do it in English and not in Polish and it JUST SUCKS SO FUCKING BAD LIKE WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE MY REALITY< WHERE I JUST HGAVE TO CONSTANTYL HAVE TO SUPRROESS MY ENGLISH-SELF AND ALL MY STRUGGLES IN ENGLISHJ AND MAINLY ONL<Y USE POLISH AS A BIT OF A MASKED APPERACNCE FOR PUBLIC AND JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

AND IT:"S NOT LIKE I CAN REALLY POST THIS FILE ONLINE (LIKE ON REDDIT) OR SOMETHING BECAUSE OF STUPID FUCKING EITHER CENSORSHIPL OR MY SORT OF OBSESSION (NOT REALLY) FOR INTERNET PRIVACY AND SHIT AND BECAUSE I PUT A LOT OF PERSONAL STUFF HERE I JUST CAN:"T POST ARHARHARHARHA> ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH WAIT< I KNOW - r/copypasta(s?) IT"S THE PERFECT PLACE< YEAH> EVERFYONE WILL THINK IT"S JUST SOME FABRICATED BULLSHIT FOR THE LOLS WHEN IT"S ACTUALLY JUST AN INSANE 15-YEAROLD LOSING HIS MIND IN THE NIGHT AND HAVING EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS AND JUST DFHAUIDLFHIOADLFHAIDLFH AI CAN "T PUT INTO WORS HERE THE EMOTIUONS I"M FELLING RIGHT NOW YOU JUST CANN"T COMP{REHEND OR MAYBE I"M BEING TO EGOISTICAL OR WHATEVER< WHAT THE FUCK ANM I TALKING ABOUT< THERE ARE PROBABLY MANY MORE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN FAR WORSE SITUATIONS (MENTALLY) THAN ME AND I"M JUST BEING OBERREACTIVE>

I'm scared.

And I'm scared to admit that.

*I'm scared of the unknown.*

And let it just end at that.

... no way I'm actually posting this, right? RIGHT???? (insert that one meme lol)

Fuck it. I don't feel like I have that much to lose anyway. And I honestly _just don't care_. I don't care if people are going to comment under this or what those comments will say, and I don't care if all this will just go unnoticed with 0 up/downvotes and that noone else will care. I don't care if this decision will negatively affect me (at least it feels like that right now). And I don't care if it's not humans, but bots, that will interact with this post.

All this to say yet another quote from that book called "Three Days of Happiness": "And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.", so I honestly expect nothing to come from this post, as, well... I certainly don't care.

(Actually this is a quote from The Beatles, but it got put in the book so whatever man)

[xER1]

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u/FouriousBanana69 — 2 months ago

And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.

[[29 VI 2026]|ER1]

Something that I've been wondering about is why I often have thoughts about really bad and crazy things happening. I mean like some crazy events like wars, people ending up in horrible situations (maybe also including me?), suicides, etc. It's not like I actually want these things to happen, but it's really weirdly entertaining to think about. And I think I know why. I like stuff to happen. For there to be more variance and unexpected and uncommon shit to happen. Breaking (horrible) records. Maybe this phenomenon has something to do with intrusive thoughts and the whereabouts. Yeah uhhh I don't know what else to add.

:3

Having a race of thoughts is weird. It's like I'm constantly thinking of different things every second. AKSJDHAJKFHAJKLGadhslgk. hjsakldfhl. I managed to get a new best time on that one parkour map in Hypixel Minecraft today. Am I crazy? These texts are supposed to be more official ig and at least a bit structured, what the fuck anm I doing rn????? Am I bored>? Man I've been holding my spacebar for a LONG time now. But ig I have faster repeat rate than most acverage people on Windows do, so this is a bit unfair. I don't know if I'm overreacting but I feel likle I'm almopst a bit drunk rn. Like, I had som ething similar going om yesterad in church when I was so utterly overheating from the high temps outside (like well over 30°C) that I felt limkme I started to lose consciousness or something, like if I was having a fever dream or somthing (ig in a way it kinda was, I think I was also sleepy at that poing but I don't remember too well).

Also one more thing I've noticedf semi-recently is that my mood and emotions seem to be heavily influinced by whatever I;'m looking/hearnig at (or just absorbing via my senses), like copying my parents (both consciously and subconsciously) or when watching someone on YouTube being all sad & whatever (this is super embarrassing for me to say but FUCK ti, I was curious and literally just watched the entirety of Zoink's last Society stream 6 and it kind threw off my mood A LOT, like, for the first few hours of today I was genuinely very productive and was motivated to do shit, but it all kinda fell aprt after watching that stream and "cop[ying" Zoink's mood which was obviously not ok). Started off my summer brake strong ig, but idk how it'll all go now. UHUHUHUHUHUHUH. I'm kinda lonely but also kinda tryuing to ignore that and just focus on improbing myselfm, that's going kinda well but I can't also ignore that feeling of loneliness somethimes. I've very recently (like 2-3 dayus ago?) read "Three Days of Happiness" and it changed my views of certain things in life (also I MIGHT be copying other's reviews now and it's starting to piss me off, like can't I fucking just make my own analyses and opinions for once for g-d's fucks sake??!!!!) :w. That authors afterword was very valiuble to me, to the point that I learnt a quote from it essentiall byu heart: "When misery is part of your identity, then not being miserable is not being yourself.". Don;'t seem to be fucvkinh learning from that quotet now huh.

~!@#$%^&*()_QWERTYUIOP{}|ASDFGHJKL:"ZXCVBNM<>?`1234567890- qwertyuiop[]\sdfghjkllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll;'

Zxcvbnm,./

Alternating my enter keyh is fun but it;s loud and I don;'t want to wake anyone uyp it's kinda late rn (22:44 CET) but also kinda isn't? I AM MUMBLING SO HARD RN WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?

235711131719232931374143475153596167 HEHEHEHE SIX sEVEN (THAT WAS EMBARRASSING AS SHIT BUT NOT DELETING IT IG)

pi ≈ 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510589 I don't remember the rest cuz the last time I've recited the later parts was likme 2 weeks ago or somthingl, crazy how I can forget so much so quickly wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowow.

Recently I've been looking into CAN I STOP SAYING "RECENTLY I"VE [...]" ITS GETTING SO ANNOYUING WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCKING FUVCKK, , , , , , , , SO: After watching that Zoink stream I got interested in the Wooting 80HE but after some considerations I've decided that it's just too expensive (but would be great for GD and beyond)

I;m wondering what God is thinking of all of this. Gosh darn it it seems that że za bardzo dobrze mi to nie idzie, pewnie łamie jakieś zasady w tej chwili ale chuj już nie wiem co powiedzieć szczerze, mam tylko nadzieję że się to wszystko dobrze skończy czy coś.

Hehe, praktycznie nigdyu nie pisałem po polsku w tych plikach, wydaje się bardz dziwne WTF. Brzmi bardziej fancy niż po angielsku ale to też zależy. Ogólnie wszystko po polsku wydaje się bardziej poważne niż po angielsku, już o tym myślałem for so much time and so many times że mnie to aż zaczyna wybrzydzać (beatina dead horse), ale to pewnie jakieś skomplikowane kulturowe różnice pomiędzy Polską i USA i te wszystkie pierdoły związane z tym.

STICK FIGURE ->

Syntax error;

#include <stdio.h>

int main( void ) { (void)printf("Hello world!\n"); return 0; }

Jest to dla mnie takie trudne żeby pisać kod co jest jakoś bardzie skomplikowanyu (>100-200 linijek około) bo nie umimem po prostu na tyle tekstu na raz się patrzeć i dalej kaoś to rozumieć wtdf

I just checked my heart beat manually with a stop watch and it's like ~71 with maybe 3-5 BPMs of accuracy error in both directions. Seems fine? I don't know I started to feel not so ok (physically) in one moment and genuinely started to get scared in one moment and gort up but I maybe feel better now ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

You have to appreciate FOSS at some point man. Neovim (which is what I"m uson rn) is just an amazing piece of software I love it, too bad I don't have the FUCKING MOTIVATION to learn to customize it to my needs and turn it into a mini-IDE and finally ditch VSCodium (+ ditching an AUR dependency for more security) and embrace to Vim workflow (and maybe switching to Zsh for vim-like terminal instead of Bash) (I already have vimium on my browser so it's nicer there). Gosh darn it I feel like venting out to someone so hard rn and it oculd literally be myu parents or whatever nut I can only really do it in English and not in Polish and it JUST SUCKS SO FUCKING BAD LIKE WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE MY REALITY< WHERE I JUST HGAVE TO CONSTANTYL HAVE TO SUPRROESS MY ENGLISH-SELF AND ALL MY STRUGGLES IN ENGLISHJ AND MAINLY ONL<Y USE POLISH AS A BIT OF A MASKED APPERACNCE FOR PUBLIC AND JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

AND IT:"S NOT LIKE I CAN REALLY POST THIS FILE ONLINE (LIKE ON REDDIT) OR SOMETHING BECAUSE OF STUPID FUCKING EITHER CENSORSHIPL OR MY SORT OF OBSESSION (NOT REALLY) FOR INTERNET PRIVACY AND SHIT AND BECAUSE I PUT A LOT OF PERSONAL STUFF HERE I JUST CAN:"T POST ARHARHARHARHA> ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH WAIT< I KNOW - r/copypasta(s?) IT"S THE PERFECT PLACE< YEAH> EVERFYONE WILL THINK IT"S JUST SOME FABRICATED BULLSHIT FOR THE LOLS WHEN IT"S ACTUALLY JUST AN INSANE 15-YEAROLD LOSING HIS MIND IN THE NIGHT AND HAVING EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS AND JUST DFHAUIDLFHIOADLFHAIDLFH AI CAN "T PUT INTO WORS HERE THE EMOTIUONS I"M FELLING RIGHT NOW YOU JUST CANN"T COMP{REHEND OR MAYBE I"M BEING TO EGOISTICAL OR WHATEVER< WHAT THE FUCK ANM I TALKING ABOUT< THERE ARE PROBABLY MANY MORE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN FAR WORSE SITUATIONS (MENTALLY) THAN ME AND I"M JUST BEING OBERREACTIVE>

I'm scared. And I'm scared to admit that. I'm scared of the unknown. And let it just end at that.

... no way I'm actually posting this, right? RIGHT???? (insert that one meme lol)

Fuck it. I don't feel like I have that much to lose anyway. And I honestly just don't care. I don't care if people are going to comment under this or what those comments will say, and I don't care if all this will just go unnoticed with 0 up/downvotes and that noone else will care. I don't care if this decision will negatively affect me (at least it feels like that right now). And I don't care if it's not humans, but bots, that will interact with this post. All this to say yet another quote from that book called "Three Days of Happiness": "And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.", so I honestly expect nothing to come from this post, as, well... I certainly don't care.

(Actually this is a quote from The Beatles, but it got put in the book so whatever man)

[xER1]

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u/FouriousBanana69 — 2 months ago

And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.

[[29 VI 2026]|ER1]

Something that I've been wondering about is why I often have thoughts about really bad and crazy things happening. I mean like some crazy events like wars, people ending up in horrible situations (maybe also including me?), suicides, etc. It's not like I actually want these things to happen, but it's really weirdly entertaining to think about. And I think I know why. I like stuff to happen. For there to be more variance and unexpected and uncommon shit to happen. Breaking (horrible) records. Maybe this phenomenon has something to do with intrusive thoughts and the whereabouts. Yeah uhhh I don't know what else to add.

:3

Having a race of thoughts is weird. It's like I'm constantly thinking of different things every second. AKSJDHAJKFHAJKLGadhslgk. hjsakldfhl. I managed to get a new best time on that one parkour map in Hypixel Minecraft today. Am I crazy? These texts are supposed to be more official ig and at least a bit structured, what the fuck anm I doing rn????? Am I bored>? Man I've been holding my spacebar for a LONG time now. But ig I have faster repeat rate than most acverage people on Windows do, so this is a bit unfair. I don't know if I'm overreacting but I feel likle I'm almopst a bit drunk rn. Like, I had som ething similar going om yesterad in church when I was so utterly overheating from the high temps outside (like well over 30°C) that I felt limkme I started to lose consciousness or something, like if I was having a fever dream or somthing (ig in a way it kinda was, I think I was also sleepy at that poing but I don't remember too well).

Also one more thing I've noticedf semi-recently is that my mood and emotions seem to be heavily influinced by whatever I;'m looking/hearnig at (or just absorbing via my senses), like copying my parents (both consciously and subconsciously) or when watching someone on YouTube being all sad & whatever (this is super embarrassing for me to say but FUCK ti, I was curious and literally just watched the entirety of Zoink's last Society stream 6 and it kind threw off my mood A LOT, like, for the first few hours of today I was genuinely very productive and was motivated to do shit, but it all kinda fell aprt after watching that stream and "cop[ying" Zoink's mood which was obviously not ok). Started off my summer brake strong ig, but idk how it'll all go now. UHUHUHUHUHUHUH. I'm kinda lonely but also kinda tryuing to ignore that and just focus on improbing myselfm, that's going kinda well but I can't also ignore that feeling of loneliness somethimes. I've very recently (like 2-3 dayus ago?) read "Three Days of Happiness" and it changed my views of certain things in life (also I MIGHT be copying other's reviews now and it's starting to piss me off, like can't I fucking just make my own analyses and opinions for once for g-d's fucks sake??!!!!) :w. That authors afterword was very valiuble to me, to the point that I learnt a quote from it essentiall byu heart: "When misery is part of your identity, then not being miserable is not being yourself.". Don;'t seem to be fucvkinh learning from that quotet now huh.

~!@#$%^&*()_QWERTYUIOP{}|ASDFGHJKL:"ZXCVBNM<>?`1234567890- qwertyuiop[]\sdfghjkllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll;'

Zxcvbnm,./

Alternating my enter keyh is fun but it;s loud and I don;'t want to wake anyone uyp it's kinda late rn (22:44 CET) but also kinda isn't? I AM MUMBLING SO HARD RN WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?

235711131719232931374143475153596167 HEHEHEHE SIX sEVEN (THAT WAS EMBARRASSING AS SHIT BUT NOT DELETING IT IG)

pi ≈ 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510589 I don't remember the rest cuz the last time I've recited the later parts was likme 2 weeks ago or somthingl, crazy how I can forget so much so quickly wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowow.

Recently I've been looking into CAN I STOP SAYING "RECENTLY I"VE [...]" ITS GETTING SO ANNOYUING WHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHERFUCKING FUVCKK, , , , , , , , SO: After watching that Zoink stream I got interested in the Wooting 80HE but after some considerations I've decided that it's just too expensive (but would be great for GD and beyond)

I;m wondering what God is thinking of all of this. Gosh darn it it seems that że za bardzo dobrze mi to nie idzie, pewnie łamie jakieś zasady w tej chwili ale chuj już nie wiem co powiedzieć szczerze, mam tylko nadzieję że się to wszystko dobrze skończy czy coś.

Hehe, praktycznie nigdyu nie pisałem po polsku w tych plikach, wydaje się bardz dziwne WTF. Brzmi bardziej fancy niż po angielsku ale to też zależy. Ogólnie wszystko po polsku wydaje się bardziej poważne niż po angielsku, już o tym myślałem for so much time and so many times że mnie to aż zaczyna wybrzydzać (beatina dead horse), ale to pewnie jakieś skomplikowane kulturowe różnice pomiędzy Polską i USA i te wszystkie pierdoły związane z tym.

STICK FIGURE ->

Syntax error;

#include <stdio.h>

int main( void ) { (void)printf("Hello world!\n"); return 0; }

Jest to dla mnie takie trudne żeby pisać kod co jest jakoś bardzie skomplikowanyu (>100-200 linijek około) bo nie umimem po prostu na tyle tekstu na raz się patrzeć i dalej kaoś to rozumieć wtdf

I just checked my heart beat manually with a stop watch and it's like ~71 with maybe 3-5 BPMs of accuracy error in both directions. Seems fine? I don't know I started to feel not so ok (physically) in one moment and genuinely started to get scared in one moment and gort up but I maybe feel better now ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

You have to appreciate FOSS at some point man. Neovim (which is what I"m uson rn) is just an amazing piece of software I love it, too bad I don't have the FUCKING MOTIVATION to learn to customize it to my needs and turn it into a mini-IDE and finally ditch VSCodium (+ ditching an AUR dependency for more security) and embrace to Vim workflow (and maybe switching to Zsh for vim-like terminal instead of Bash) (I already have vimium on my browser so it's nicer there). Gosh darn it I feel like venting out to someone so hard rn and it oculd literally be myu parents or whatever nut I can only really do it in English and not in Polish and it JUST SUCKS SO FUCKING BAD LIKE WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE MY REALITY< WHERE I JUST HGAVE TO CONSTANTYL HAVE TO SUPRROESS MY ENGLISH-SELF AND ALL MY STRUGGLES IN ENGLISHJ AND MAINLY ONL<Y USE POLISH AS A BIT OF A MASKED APPERACNCE FOR PUBLIC AND JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

AND IT:"S NOT LIKE I CAN REALLY POST THIS FILE ONLINE (LIKE ON REDDIT) OR SOMETHING BECAUSE OF STUPID FUCKING EITHER CENSORSHIPL OR MY SORT OF OBSESSION (NOT REALLY) FOR INTERNET PRIVACY AND SHIT AND BECAUSE I PUT A LOT OF PERSONAL STUFF HERE I JUST CAN:"T POST ARHARHARHARHA> ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH WAIT< I KNOW - r/copypasta(s?) IT"S THE PERFECT PLACE< YEAH> EVERFYONE WILL THINK IT"S JUST SOME FABRICATED BULLSHIT FOR THE LOLS WHEN IT"S ACTUALLY JUST AN INSANE 15-YEAROLD LOSING HIS MIND IN THE NIGHT AND HAVING EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS AND JUST DFHAUIDLFHIOADLFHAIDLFH AI CAN "T PUT INTO WORS HERE THE EMOTIUONS I"M FELLING RIGHT NOW YOU JUST CANN"T COMP{REHEND OR MAYBE I"M BEING TO EGOISTICAL OR WHATEVER< WHAT THE FUCK ANM I TALKING ABOUT< THERE ARE PROBABLY MANY MORE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN FAR WORSE SITUATIONS (MENTALLY) THAN ME AND I"M JUST BEING OBERREACTIVE>

I'm scared. And I'm scared to admit that. I'm scared of the unknown. And let it just end at that.

... no way I'm actually posting this, right? RIGHT???? (insert that one meme lol)

Fuck it. I don't feel like I have that much to lose anyway. And I honestly just don't care. I don't care if people are going to comment under this or what those comments will say, and I don't care if all this will just go unnoticed with 0 up/downvotes and that noone else will care. I don't care if this decision will negatively affect me (at least it feels like that right now). And I don't care if it's not humans, but bots, that will interact with this post. All this to say yet another quote from that book called "Three Days of Happiness": "And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.", so I honestly expect nothing to come from this post, as, well... I certainly don't care.

(Actually this is a quote from The Beatles, but it got put in the book so whatever man)

[xER1]

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u/FouriousBanana69 — 2 months ago