26.3 weeks and in hospital with contractions
I am 26.3 weeks pregnant with my 6th pregnancy and 1 child at home. I had it all: mmc at 9 weeks, pprom at 21, emergency cerclage at 16 and this is what got me my daughter at 35.6 and she is 5 now, then tfmr due to trisomy 18 at 13 weeks and lastly another miscarriage at 14 weeks due to ic literally an hour before I was scheduled to get my preventative cerclage. I am already so heartbroken and have thought I was done with pregnancies. Then this miracle pregnancy comes out of nowhere, we didn't plan it at all and we're cautious but.. here we are. I got my cerclage at 10 weeks now, has had a ton of discomfort throughout this pregnancy and very little hope but we somehow managed to get to 26 weeks which brings me to today.
I felt some cramps in the morning, waited a few hours for them to resolve to no luck and went in to L&D to get checked. They caught some contractions, not very structured, but still. On initial exam I was closed and stitch not on tension, then a few hours later they said it is now allowing 1 finger in but the stitch is seemingly still fine. I'm waiting for a repeat exam in a few hours again. I'm so stressed. I knew it was a possibility at any stage of the pregnancy but now facing it is so freaking scary. I scanned through the r/nicuparents and there's a lot of great stories of 26 weekers but the road is not easy, and there are many possibilities along the way, not only positive ones..
Idk what am I expecting from ranting here, I guess some encouragement or just support. God please help