I wish I had a hookup phase in college
I (22M) have just graduated with my bachelor’s degree and am still a virgin (had multiple opportunities, just didn’t feel right). I also didn’t go on a date, have my first kiss, or have a girlfriend until I was 20.
I’ve been talking to/seeing someone (24F) for around 4 months now and she’s been promiscuous in her past. We’ve talked about it a couple times, I told her I don’t wanna know, but she still tells me stories about times where she’s made out with multiple people in a night or about how she used to be able to put a condom on with her mouth. It’s not something I’m morally against, I don’t shame it, but the jealousy is there from the experience gap. It makes me feel like I wouldn’t be as special to her as she already is to me. This is making me feel like moving on from her. She’s a really sweet girl who I could see myself being with for a long time but I’m struggling with this.
I say I wish I had a hookup phase because I feel like I wouldn’t have any thoughts about my potential future partner’s past if I had an extended record myself. That way it’s no harm/no foul, we both had a taste, we both have stories from our fun times, and we can move on. However, I didn’t have it in me to have one (playing with people’s feelings is a dangerous thing to do) and I feel like I missed out.