Am I the jerk for forgiving his first cheat, only for him to end up sleeping with my father?
My boyfriend and I dated for 5 years, we had a good relationship, nothing like that, although a year ago he cheated on me once, but like a young fool I forgave him, I thought that we would still manage to make a family, he apologized very many times, in any case I acted very stupidly, I realize this.
There was a moment that I am moving in with him, I am slightly ruining the relationship with my mom and father, they thought that it was still a bit too early, especially after the fact that he cheated on me, she said that I needed to wait a bit, but I think okay everything will be fine. And he makes a surprise for me, tells me that we are leaving to the sea to rest, I am like great, we didn't fight at all before the vacation, everything was wonderful, we were supposed to rest for two weeks.
So we are sitting in the room, I was dressing into something, then decided to take the computer to watch a TV show, he was walking somewhere doing something, either in the shower or something else, so I found the TV show, and here I go into Instagram and see a very large number of indecent messages, there are older people, some swinger couples, and I see my father's account.
My heart almost stopped, I go into the chat, scroll through it and see the most disgusting things. My father writes that he really wants a young boy, my ex writes that he wants him, they exchange indecent photos and so on. I fall into a hysteria, I am shaking, I am sobbing, my ex runs in, he sees me, then the open computer and here he falls into a rage, starts screaming at me, corners me, I am just in shock from what is happening, I cannot calm down, then he starts apologizing, but I pack my things and just run out of the room. It is impossible to recover from this even now.