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I’m 19 now and was raised Pentecostal until I was about 11 when my parents decided to switch to non denominational. I never really had a relationship with god because you’re raised in church, you normally don’t until you find him on your own. At 18 I started going to my local Catholic Church because I had always been interested in learning about the Catholic Church and especially since my parents and most if not all of my family is against the idea and beliefs Catholic Church as a whole. I think that I started going to the church at first out of curiosity and stayed as an act of rebellion because I knew how my parents and family feel about it. I went continuously for about 2 months and even started OCIA. Then suddenly I realized that I didn’t feel directly called to the Catholic Church and with that realization came the realization that I had never felt called to god at all. It’s been about a year since then and I want to start my journey to Christ and the church. I still haven’t felt the calling specifically but I know god is real and I know the Catholic Church is the one true church, I just want to be able to believe whole heartedly if that makes sense. I re enrolled this year in my churches OCIA but I still can’t differentiate the feelings of how I was raised to feel about god and gods true voice. Any advice would be great.

I’m 19 now and was raised Pentecostal until I was about 11 when my parents decided to switch to non denominational. I never really had a relationship with god because you’re raised in church, you normally don’t until you find him on your own. At 18 I started going to my local Catholic Church because I had always been interested in learning about the Catholic Church and especially since my parents and most if not all of my family is against the idea and beliefs Catholic Church as a whole. I think that I started going to the church at first out of curiosity and stayed as an act of rebellion because I knew how my parents and family feel about it. I went continuously for about 2 months and even started OCIA. Then suddenly I realized that I didn’t feel directly called to the Catholic Church and with that realization came the realization that I had never felt called to god at all. It’s been about a year since then and I want to start my journey to Christ and the church. I still haven’t felt the calling specifically but I know god is real and I know the Catholic Church is the one true church, I just want to be able to believe whole heartedly if that makes sense. I re enrolled this year in my churches OCIA but I still can’t differentiate the feelings of how I was raised to feel about god and gods true voice. Any advice would be great.

When I asked my tarot deck if I will get a black cat this year, the outcome was 2 of cups upside down. What does that mean???????

I use a Morgan Greer tarot deck and used the “diagram of the ancient Celtic method of divination” that it had in the instructions. Also I’ve bonded with my card for about three days before doing the reading so I don’t think it’s that.