Do you find yourself flipping the cards without noticing?
I'm a begginer, it's been little over a month since I started tarot practice. Sometimes I'll begin a reading after putting the cards down and realize I'm unsure if, when I drew the card, I flipped it right side up to see what it was and didn't notice myself placing it on the table like that instead of reversed.
When that happens, I'll sometimes lightly throw the card in a way that makes it spin once or twice and see how it lands so I have some guidance to how it was supposed to be.
I keep wondering if I unconsciously flipped the card while placing because I was wishing for a good outcome, or if I'm doubting if I did that because I'm unconsciously looking for something to be bad/wrong because of insecurity and anxiety.
I'm not sure if I just have a really cooked attention span or what's going on, because sometimes I feel like I'm paying so much attention, only to somehow forget exactly what I did and how I did it. I feel a bit crazy because of that.
I don't know if this is maybe my intuition asking me to consider both meanings or if it's just anxiety and insecurity speaking.
Has this ever happened to you? How do you go about that?