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Reddit unsent letters user who wrote 2 months ago did you think i wouldnt see it how could you i might not be able to read it because it's been deleted but I could see the comments I wanna know what I did. I wanna know what you'd think I did. I wanna know what I did to be treated so bad before I put down everything. I want to know well all I did was ever love you. And treat you good, is you think you deserve? That's the right to treat me that way. I want to know what a man who has fought so hard.It kept his face to love you.And cherish you and be with you again has been treated like 🐕💩 and worse i done everything you have asked respected you protected you had my phone hacked senice 2023 as soon as I took down some of those steam post saying people out of there money and using your information and your parents my phone was litterd with bots witch gave that hacker to full access not only to my number that they all ready had but all app control and as soon as you reached out on threads and I was filled with love and hope that I was getting my baby back they text threatening me to put my nudes online and to friends and family and as soon as I closed the app to answer them and told them no ill all went on threads and I lost you and you forgot how to see the real me that you had for 2 years and all I did was protect you if gotten parable messages from you all ive ever wanted was your love respect and understanding for you to see me like I see you still and no matter how I get hurt or mad i still apologized and tryed to love you I sent you screenshot of the hackers messages the online bulling trolls and hackers using yours and your parnts info and I have to be mean and attack because being nice dosnt work treating legal action dost work only being mean and vital was the only way I was ever able to protect the man I love and ill always gladly be the villain to protect the man I love you have an amazing ambiguity to realize the truth you come in after weeks of no contact with no way for me to know your username and come in those times and I think hers another troll I gatta protect my man I say one mean thing relive its you and before I can even apologize and explain you what happened you run away deleting your profile or worse its going well I get off to take care of my mental health for a little bit and 45 minutes latter i get back on realizing my stalker of 3 mouths and his little groupies of friends and family have attacked and lied to you hurt u using my food disorder and my documents posted to lie to you twist my beautiful words and the meaning behind them to manipulate and attack you and you run again had you once read anything I sent you then you would of known the truth right away but instead you look at nothing you are asked countless times to fallow another page of mine and 20 time at least with no answer what your profile name on threads are because im using it for therapy and we actually have an amazing week and a week of no trouble and as soon as I need my bage one everyone on there had agreed to be attacked on there to help me all you do is come In get attacked and run agian no time to apologize or Exsplan you judge me no matter what I do yet I fixed so many things and was ready to share a life with you and ifs sade I can look bast all you've done and continue to do and all you do is run ive emailed you proof of the hack,messages from the hacker,photos of the bullying ther ones trying to be you love and protecting ive bone for you acoutiability for your hurt and pain you've recived I've been open valerable and tryed everthing I even had to put my stalker in jail I forgive all this because ik how you are inside despite all evening I believe in you and in us and all you do is hate me why I have email proof have photographic proof and 3 eye whiteness that wanna back me up knowing if we work out she has to go to a nursing home and the other two become homeless but yet they wanna do right by me over 50 screenshots text messages and 3 whiteness countless documents over days and night long and nothing rom you im not psychic you read nothing sent to you new fb new Instagrams new every 1000 a mouth for therapy 800 for a new apple phone 600 for new software 80 to use it 400 new car payment 1500 +1000 for food 3 jobs all this money going out all this stuff going on and you hating me and yet I see a post or readit and I think its you at first because of it talking about how your never happy with your performances fell like your back to square 1 and are ganna be giving up on your dream because your parnts are at retirement age without even having me as a friend or more or me knowing ive found your profile what do I do i beg you to let me pay your touishion each month so you dont give up on your dreams I tell you no strings attached the money wont quite until your graduated if it takes 1 year or 10 years you'll get it every mouth that we dont have to be friends lovers or even talk that id but it in your mailbox every mouth and leave just cash it i sit there in pain with blood curtialing screams and crying all im able to say it my baby they hurt my baby keeping the whole house up all night the neighbor coming over to make sure people are ok im constantly so upset whenever I hurt you by accident im so hurt and upset that I always try committing suicide im having so many strokes that with my hart condition it stretches and overworks the hart so much that the small hole in my hart rips open all the way threw and I start bleaching internally I tell you about it crying my eyes and how I dont wanna die alone and wanna go in your arms and you say you dont know what to tell me your still young and strong and laff I get so upset my friend Queen asks what's going on and you tell her its a secret I tell her what's going on and she reams you a new one then you tell her your waiting for the right timing so I give you space all day i talk to you sweet all evening and the next day and as you ignore me like im a gost as I say sweet beautiful things and people get so mad they start creating post about how I deserve better and should treat myself better I get mad at them defending you and us and you run away again as at tis point I but a knife to my throat ready to end it and my brother looks at me traps my car keys and leaves me home alone to do it then I get contacted by you who I only find out latter is a troll who pretends to be you only to save me then tern around with all kinds of insults including telling me quote "When you said we could still have fun when I broke up with you it made me feel eww"and quote "i have nothing to apologize for because ive done nothing wrong " do you know what its like to always be abandoned lied to manipulated told by the man you love there thing trated this way and have your friends and family tern there back on you to be raped growing up to be philosophical sexually and mentally abused your interior life and sould for pleasure by exs for extra money for them to earn extra cash and finaly open yourself fully and trust fully when you have never done it with anyone ever and feel for the first time ever you are safe loved and seen and the one person you think would never hurt you never abandoned you walks in one day out of know where breaks your hart and abandons you now imagine all that and then getting played back and forth about we will we wont told not to touch you getting flirted with at times waking up to being touched making what you think as love to your ex trying to pay it off cool the next day but still neededing to know because I fave up my apartment for you and want you back and being made to feel descussted about it until you self mutilate your manhood now imagine buying that man flowers 💐 taking him on dates kissing him at his door and being told 2 days later hes going for a walk with friends whall you know hes going on a tender date because your callenders are still synced at the time 📅 or asking for some online game time to hang or bond and told no your taking a break gaming and seeing on discord hes active on DBD and imagine asking for flute lessons or asking his opinion on moving to collaboration or arizona or florida and other things and being ignored and you say nothing now imagine he asked you 2 days befor you leave for vacation to get the rest of your stuff out when you get back you've been ignoring for a wee so you pay off your hurt and pain cool and simply say with loving kindness that its ok hes ignoring you that he understands you don't wanna talk to you that he obviously needs time and you will get your TV sound bar and other things out when you get back now imagine getting a text back full of hate and pain saying how your threatening that your not welcomed at his house or on his property that the locks are changed and he will need 2 mouth if not more before he can talk to you and you respond with a sarrofilled message filled with hurt stating you cant play this hating game and you'll always love him no matter what and you have to block him now for your own safety and less then a week later you unblock him and see hes blocked you not only from the phone but every single app there is so you make letters and videos and messages and poems on your phone and email them to kin only for mouths of silince and you give him 4 mouths of space before reaching out with friendship and being ignored again now imagine being manipulated to leave when each time be for you have had a mouth or more to leave and you alway leave within 2 weeks and he says hes ready to restart but we need to do it living separately and you move and he takes it back tells you he had to lie coze he was desperate for you to get out why because I love you because you wanted to get drawn naked and I tryed to top you and have you think about your career first and had to get your parnts involved so you didnt trust 2 men I was told tied a guy up in there basement for days to sleep with and had to pay to keep quiet and you ended up having a falling out with anyway because you didnt lie the drawing was or what they did with it or the time you were asked to respect me enough not to go after 2 of my friends and out of all the QC chicago and iowa city and you did only for me to ceach hell for 2 days from his husband tell me how I need to keep you on a leash harassing me and almost causing a divorce and loosing both as a friend texting you about what you did only to hear im too dramatic and you cant handle the level of my emotions or telling me in person afterwards that it's my problem.It's not your problem, you have nothing to do with it they're my friends when you're the one who sent them explicit pic's or when id cry in front of you only to hear its unattractive week and ok im done with this your leaving and to ask all the time do I have to be a robot to be around you and told no I dont only to be proven otherwise or the time you extend vacation for a week and my backup had heft town for vacation and the my friend knew this so id have to put out or get out whall it's still spring cold outside frost on the ground in the mornings and I call you your 45 min away your parnts house has what 6 or 7 rooms and tell you the situation and you say no not your problem as I get raped for a week now imagine all this and the man you are still in love with more then anything just wanna be with and make him happy not only did this all but dosnt think your owed an apology a reasion to hear why and hates your guts for loving him and defending and protecting him without fail no matter what still to this day and has relived the fact that man has gotten 3 jobs saving boundaries a new car frind takes trips got his GED going to collage this fall and has also relied him silling around waiting on you hand and foot and following you everywhere out of fear of loosing the only good thing hes ever had he realizes it left you not being attacked to me and not being suitable life long partner that way no matter how amazing he treated you so knows that he sits and waits after fighting all that and when his baby he shows boundaries he calls out what he dose so his love dosnt feel like hes put on an impossible pedestal of being perfect like in the past and he runs away and never gives you a real chance to rebuild off or a 3ed party app where its doomed to fail because of all the bullies trolling and harassment you get there and he'd rather believe your a bad person looking up things like did my ex cheat knowing we were in an open relationship and its impossible to cheat in one or so I thought now imagine 3 days ago finding out not only did you sleep with my friend but you toped and without a condom so not only are you actually cheating by braking the role dont do anything you wont do to me when you wont even top me but your not using protection with is role 2 so even though the kacker put on that lieing photo it turns out I would have had every right to look it up and if you're wondering who told me, I think no further than the same person you texted after you gave me two STD to let him know now imagine all this and yet, you're a man still sees you your heart and soul forgives it all and still wants you and wants to hold you in his arms and keep you safe and protect it and loved and cherished forever so why why why can't you see me?And why don't?I deserve answers for any of this and why am I not good enough to be with you i know, imagine how awful the man who loves you feels because you have left him no choice but to text all this on here, because you have blocked him from everything and do not read any new thing he trys too tell you anything or show you or send you now you know everything including the fact that within a few weeks I will probably most likely end myself because I cannot go on like this i am too damaged and you are the only one who can heal me and you are the only thing that matters to me and without you I am history without my baby.I end myself and imagine how I feel because I can't ever trust it because I don't know if you're only with me out of pity and just make me stay alive or because you're with me because you want me as my roommate sits hearing it all seeing all the pain hurt suffering shaking tears and pain of her fring who has a very week hart and has recently had hart surgery and was technically dead for 1h 30 min whall you had your last performance as he sits and clenches her chest and crystal with a breaking hart helping he plan my funeral ang what to do with my body knowing im ganna end myself because she knows ill never get anything I need from you and she can do nothing more because when she tried talking to you after rehearsal you brought the pastor a man who talks crap about both me and her constantly and you too just you know behind your back and Ellen a woman who constantly tries to put her in a nursing home
So you took a 68 your old woman, who is wheelchair-bound who has dementia and bullied her into cowering down her words not mine an intimidating her into not speaking about any of it to you and as soon as she asked about threads she walked away when you knew she wanted to speak with you privately and tell you what was going on and get some answers herself so now she's helping me prepare for what I won't ever get from you so you have made it to a point where it is either you or nothing and I cannot and I will not ever harm you and I will not and I cannot ever force you or accept you being in a relationship with me just to save my life and just because you feel guilty I should have been enough on my own and before I go I just want some answers, is that too much to ask for am I that much ever worth as human being to be done this way my entire life and be done this way by the one man I have done nothing but remain faithful to my entire time do I deserve no contact really?