Catechumen asking for prayer, saints, and any wisdom you have. Work situation has gotten really heavy.
I'm a catechumen in the OCA preparing for chrismation. I work as a live-in caregiver for an elderly man and I genuinely love him and the work. But the situation around the job has turned into something I'm really struggling with. I've become the scapegoat for just about everything, and things are being said about me that aren't true. I'm worn down and I'm trying to figure out whether to stay or go, and how to find the courage to have a hard conversation with my employer without losing my temper or my charity.
I've been praying to St. Joseph the All-Comely because his story hits close to home. His brothers sold him, Potiphar's wife lied about him, and he kept getting buried under things that weren't his fault. But he never became bitter and he never abandoned the people he was responsible for. That's what I'm trying to hold onto right now.
I've also been asking St. John Chrysostom for the right words before this conversation I need to have. He never seemed to shrink back from speaking truth to people in power and I need some of that right now.
I don't have easy access to my priest at the moment, which is part of why I'm here. I know this isn't a substitute for a confessor. But I also know the brothers and sisters carry each other when fathers are hard to reach and that's as old as the desert.
So I'm asking for three things. Please pray for me. God knows my name. If you know of any saints, troparia, akathists, or prayers that speak to false accusation, endurance, or discernment about a hard life situation, please share them. And if you've walked through something like this and have any wisdom from the other side of it, I'd really be grateful to hear it.
Lord have mercy.