u/Free_Vehicle4093

I lost my sweet baby to cancer on Friday after being with her for almost 13 years. I can't get the image of her dying out of my head and the horrible death rattle. She died while I held her paw. We shared a birthday and I don't know how it'll be without her this year. I'd give anything to be with her again, wishing she'd be following me around the house or napping in my room. I even miss cleaning up her accidents due to her bladder cancer. I have no one to talk to, what should I do? My heart hurts without her