Looking for opinions/perspectives
I’m new to this sub because I’m new to this experience.
I’m in an extremely happy relationship. I was single for years (my early thirties) and when I met him at 35, I thought all my dreams had come true. Tall, handsome, smart, successful, incredibly kind, funny, fun! It was wonderful, it still is. Three years later we’re living together and to all our family and friends, the happiest couple they know.
In February I was out for dinner with three of my best guy friends. We’ve all been friends for 20+ years.
My best friend of the group, who yes we have had many friend with benefit nights together growing up, and there have been times where I thought I loved him and visa versa, but the last 5 years he’s met someone and had kids and I have my partner so it’s been very much plutonic and loving in a much more best friend way.
Anyway, February we were out and it was just the two of us left. Something came over me and I just kissed him. He looked incredibly shocked at first but then we spent the next 3+ hours just kissing like a couple of teenagers.
Since then we haven’t seen each other but have been talking more or less every day. It’s moved to basically text sex on the regular and I cannot stop thinking about him, morning noon and night, even before I wake up he is in my mind.
My question is, how can you be in such a happy and fulfilling relationship and also want to do this with someone else. It’s so confusing. The guilt is killing me and I never thought I’d be this person.
Any insight would be appreciated, please be kind 🙏🏼