Today is one year.
One year since my life as I knew it fell apart.
One year since I discovered my husband was a cruel, manipulative narcissist who I didnt know at all.
One year since I discovered a phone used purely for cheating on me with unspeakable photos and videos of what he was doing with other women.
One year since I started to question my sanity, my trust in others, and in myself.
One year since I have suffered physical affects such as gut issues, sleep issues, jaw issues, depression and anxiety I am now medicated on 100mg of Sirtraline a day.
To make this day extra special, I also found out that the guy I had a situationship with for a couple of months post separation has also moved on with a new woman, a couple of weeks after breaking things off with me out of the blue.
My ex husband has shown himself to be the most despicable excuse for a person with the highest level of cruelty. He has sent me texts supposedly meant for another woman, and then recently also asked me to come and collect property, in which he had another woman at the house hiding in the bedroom. All the whole continuing to proposition me, apologise, and try to convince me that there is something, even friendship, worth saving.
I am so frustrated. I am hurting, angry, lost, sad, depressed. I am on medication. I do counselling and psychology. I spend time with my friends and minimise contact with my ex and it still feels like I can't breathe.
Does it ever get better? I just want all of this to go away.