I am unable to sympathize with my mother anymore.
My mom is very narcissistic. I love her so much but over the years she has been unbearably selfish. To start off, i was taking high school entrance exams, and since my school is very harsh in it's system i need to get a really good grade to continue in it in high school (basically 50% of my classmates were refused). I really worked so hard for it and thanks god i got a 97%, We were all happy with this. Anyways, a week after the results came out my mom was in bed and started being so sluggish and tripping on her words when dad came to ask her something, he was very very worried because he believed it was the symptoms of a stroke (Mind you, his father died with a stroke so it was a very sensitive matter to him), so he rushed her to the hospital, my older sister went with them and i was left home with my younger brother. My sister told me the doctor there said word to word to her in private "Did you upset your mother or something?" so she said no and explained we were all very happy recently. so he said "she is just being spoiled, there is nothing wrong with her, Not one of the lab results was off, just take care of her and make her feel loved maybe she wants to rest from the housework.". so my sister told him not to tell my father since this was a very sensitive matter for him and our father gets upset easily (this could've ended very wrong). The doctor prescribed her a few supplements. Does it end here? no. On the course of 2 months she goes to 3 different doctors, they all say nothing is wrong with her and she says they are unreliable and bad doctors. Then she finds a doctor that says she does have it (literally he is a thief), and even the medicine he gave her was normal vitamins because there was NOTHING.
we are a family of 5 and only our dad provides, so we are also suffering financially. Her medicines and appointments were really expensive especially since she was lying. When i saw her search history, she searched for the symptoms way before anything, so basically she was acting it! Ever since then she acts like she has memory problems (but never forgets if we owe her money), and has been increasingly irritable and always blaming this irritability on the 'stroke'. I SWEAR, she stayed all day moaning in pain but when she was alone at night and thought everyone was asleep she stopped. until i made noise and she quickly hid her phone and acted like she was sleeping.
Then a year after it my father was diagnosed with cancer. It was a very difficult period for all of us. Mom always acted like she took the full brunt of it. Even after (thanks god) he beat cancer she increased her 'stroke' act. Whenever anyone of us gets tired, goes through a difficult situation or anything she always acts like her life is harder, like that situation is harder on her just because she is our mother. Right now i am preparing for college entrance exams and she acts like she is tired of it. SHE DID NOTHING. She doesn't do anything, i am not being ungrateful, i love her, she is my mom and i would trade the world for her but GIVE ME A BREAK. life isn't about her, she is always wanting to be in the center of attention. Lately she fell and nothing happened. When i told my sister (who was in college) she said oh my god here she goes again, and that really scares me. What if one day she is really sick but we dismiss it just because we can't trust her anymore. I am so tired of everything. Academic pressure is already too much and she isn't helping, and if i try to say anything she explodes and screams.