u/Frequent_Read_4101

Alam naman natin lahat na malakas mang brainwash yung incult, kahit sa mga poor innocent kids pa. Authority plays a big role in their lives, and I've been observing that. Whenever there's an issue or drama, people with higher tungkulin can step through, manggagawa, ministry, head of the secretary, head of buklod/kadiwa/binhi, people in the cult immediately get scared.

They have such big mouths and a disgusting amount of bravery to badmouth, do foul stuff, and get scared of the consequences when they're caught! and when they're confronted, they're just like soulless robots and walking puppets! they said they can't do anything, they can't speak up, parang mute lang sila, walang bibig. biglang walang silbi ung pagsasalita nila. 😂 pet peeve ko talaga mga ganung tao, masunurin lang tas di tinatanong ung authority/leader or whatever. 😂 because their brains are the size of a pea.

they've been brainwashed and put tons of bullshit in their head for years and now they just obey blindly!! this cult strips the individuality, logic, and critical thinking of one. Honestly pissing me off. They're just obeying, following, or whatever. The words they speak "Don't tell anyone/confidential/wag po ipalabas/sikreto lang natin to" has no effect at all!! 🤣 nakakatawa talaga. Mga takot at walang guts para tumayo at magspeak up at magtanong lang sa authority.

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I'm extremely exhausted. Really exhausted. Going to church has been my daily routine EVERY damn week and every worship services are repetitive, long, to the point you'd just literally question why the hell are you listening to a manggagawa/minister spouting bullshit. It's so annoying when they scream during the service, especially when praying and saying Eduardog manalo's should have good health or whatsoever.

My friends and my mother questions me sometimes why I look so sad or I looked zoned out most of the time. Probably because this piece of cult has been messing with me. Literally. I try my best to avoid doing my duties but I'll get punished away. I really wanna leave but I can't. I love my parents a lot and I will definitely pay back good of what they did to me, raising me as a good and disciplined child. Except it's getting ruined by this cult.

Being a Secretary as your duty means that you will hear lots of gossip and whatever else. I get involved to that type of gossip, it's toxic for me mentally. Toxicity is the type of thing I usually try my best to avoid, but I seem like a magnet these days. My friends are treating me like I'm invisible. They hide things from me just because I wasn't involved and the reasons are so stupid. And what they hide is also ten times more stupid. My best friend has been ignoring me for the past few days, they have been distant, and I'm always given the cold shoulder. Plus, whenever I'm around, my best friend is around, BUT her other friend is around, I'm immediately left out. I try to find ways to sneak into the conversation but no. When I say something they just go silent.

This cult is so afraid of damaging their damn reputation and its silly. Super hilarious, it makes me laugh. The media will always see your fuckass dirty stuff you're doing here. To the incults members seeing this, I hope your happy. Always saying shit to "jUsT gO tO tHe ChUrCh aNd PrAy!" as if that would fix my mental state. I am so close to ending my shit. Really. Just wanted to let out all my anger here. I'm glad this subreddit exists.

I'm trying to cope with myself and just wait for a few years to leave. I know my family would be extremely disappointed but it doesn't mean I don't love them anymore. I would still provide for them. And that's the only reason why I'm still alive, probably, that's my only will to live.

Just a curious question. As far as I know, yung mga kalihim at finance dapat sumamba. Minsan tupad at samba pa nga sila eh, but can they not attend a worship service? genuine question. If you're a finance or kalihim and you've tried na tumupad lang, please tell me what you did and what was the consequences. thanks.