Idk if am ever gonna recover from this..
18 yo cis gay guy over here.. so what happened was that I met this guy from this subreddit a week ago. He was a bi guy living in the south and basically I was the one to text him at first. What hurts is that he is a very depressed guy, extremely sweet, very passionate and caring. Like literally the perfect person that I had ever met as someone who said will be my bf. He was bi.
So we basically talked for 5 days, we used to talk on vc's, since am from the north so it was a very big distance difference. He was so sweet and such a nice guy that I finally felt I had someone to look over at me with care as a gay guy. Like he literally made me feel the world at my fingertips
The day that we spoke last ended on just a text from my end. A grave mistake that I would never be able to forgive myself about.. speaking about it still makes me grieve with shame. That day we spoke with each other, the entire day.. moments before that thing happened.. we were even talking to each other like any other day. We decided we would talk on wp since my mom kept on coming in my room, while he was on call so I was texting while I could hear him on my bluetooth headset.. he was saying how we would have a living room and have a big tv... Until I said something so shitty that I will never be able to forgive myself.
I feel so bad that I made him cry that day and feel all things shitty.. results were that he ended our situationship with telling me that he liked me once but not anymore. It's been 2 days ..he had texted after i texted with an sms thru another device, only to finally tell that there should be nothing between us and that I should move on. Ppl, I genuinely liked him.. like really he made me feel so good .. am I not deserving of forgiveness for just a text where I said something immaturely even though y'all would judge me for it and I am good accepting that y'all would..💔
He has blocked me everywhere, even here.. I genuinely miss him I wish I could forgive myself and I wish that night didn't take place.. I will miss him severely and I feel hopeless..