Dear John
For a long time, I felt like I was living in a fog. So much changed in my life, and I kept trying to go back to the person I used to be.
I’m starting to accept that I can’t go back. My life changed me. I’m a different person now, and that realization scared me.
My feelings for you are something I still don’t fully understand.
Recently, I read more about polyamory and the idea that it’s possible to love about more than one person. It made me realize human emotions can be complicated, and it made me feel better about myself.
I still feel angry and confused sometimes, and, I don’t always know where those feelings should go. But not every feeling needs to be solved right away, and that’s okay.
I’m still sad that you left and that we can’t talk anymore.
But through acceptance, faith, and God, I’ve started to feel calmer.
Take care.
Esther