BF 23M is deliberately torturing me 23F mentally after i made a huge mistake?
So we were talking on the phone about going to see a horror movie tomorrow but i was reluctant as i get bad dreams after watching these kinda movies. Worst, i can remember both the movie and dream vividly so i try to avoid them as much as possible. However, after dating my bf of 3 years, we have went to see horror movies numerous times despite him knowing my feelings about it. I just close my eyes most of the times and he gives me warnings when theres something about to appear on the screen.
After talking about the movie, I brought up the one thing he's scared of, Momo. I laughed and joked saying, "it's funny how you are scared of the Momo figure but are not scared of watching horror movie", and i also said that im gonna send him an image of it. I didn't send it anyway (i knew that was over the line) but i continued laughing with tears. This hurt him as he felt like i wasn't taking his trauma seriously.
I snapped and apologised because i knew i had crossed the line. I said sorry over and over again. I even offered to watch another horror movie, which i know is scarier, without closing my eyes like i usually do and alone. He accepted that deal and added that he's gonna send a scary image when im about to sleep but i argued it's not fair that way since i never sent any images to him.
Now, he's deliberately torturing me by using silent treatment. Not answering to my questions. Not forgiving me. And even tried to control my daily family dinner time. Passive aggressiveness when i had to end the call to cook dinner for my family. He said i deserve this kind of treatment so that i got hurt the same way he was hurting too. And nothing i do will ever be enough until he say so.
Is this abuse or i really deserve this? I feel like the line between those two is getting blurry to me.