I cheated and I hate myself.
So we have been together for 1.5 years now. Few days back, I got this ad on instagram about this app called "Equals". It was an app where you can match with people based on your music taste. So I downloaded it and used it for a few days. Made some girl-friends over there. I did tell them about my gf though. Some of them asked for my insta so I exchanged it. I talked to a few on insta too but never told about them to my gf. I used to delete chats. My gf did have my instagram account and one day she checked my following and asked me about who they were. I said I used omegle and exchanged id's. Yes, I lied again. I don't have the balls to tell her that it wasn't omegle. Anyways, now she doesn't trust me(obv) and is thinking of breaking up with me. I don't want her to do that, i can't lose her. I hate myself, about what I did. I never did anything bad in the relationship until now that is why she is still thinking about what to do with me. But honestly, I don't forgive myself so idk how do I even convince her to do that. Ik I am a bad person. I need a honest advice on this pls.