I want to start off by saying that I have always loved my husband. He's an amazing man, and something about us just fits at a deep level.
However, some things a close relative said when we first got together haunted me for a long time. I have OCD and it doesn't take much, but in this case it was a relative that had kind of positioned themselves as an authority when they weren't. The sticking point was that I also had people pleasing tendencies so I played into that with them and others.
After some personal work I started gaining confidence and setting boundaries. My husband and I continued to do well so it felt like a personal win. I had no idea that it was a relational one as well.
However, as time has gone on, I realized that I had internalized some of the dynamics that I had with others. When I set boundaries I didn't just limit their access to me, I stopped giving those dynamics space in my mind and therefore my marriage.
I am finding myself not just in love with my husband but deeply, madly head over heels. He's the same gentleman that he's always been, but I am absolutely smitten in a whole new way. The kisses are lingering longer. I am reaching for his embrace more often, and I am finding myself day dreaming about him sometimes when I'm supposed to be working. 🫣🫢☺️ It's adorable, and it feels amazing. I know my husband feels it too. It makes me smile when I see him a little puzzled in the best way by all of this new romance.
I just wanted to share because I can't keep it in! He's working from home today and I am over here swooning when I hear him talking in his meetings. Lol!!!
Also, maybe someone needs to hear this? if you were wondering if the discomfort of setting boundaries is worth it I can absolutely tell you that it is. Very much so. It was terrifying for me at the time, but if I would have known this to be the outcome I would have done it sooner.
Okay, going back to my introverted corner now. 😝😅🤣
Thanks for listening!