Scared of my future starting college
I'm starting pre-med soon, and to put it simply, I'm afraid. I love science, and becoming a doctor is my ultimate goal. I'm afraid that I'm just not born "smart enough." I'm nearing the end of my senior year, and I got a C on AP Physics 1. I know it's not the end of the world; I didn't necessarily give it my all since it was my senior year, but I still put effort into it. There are kids in that class who just seem like geniuses. One of my best friends barely studies; dude got a 1590 on his SAT on his first try with just 1 week of studying, and he's taken the hardest classes our school offers while acing all of them.
I wonder if these are the people who achieve the MD. I'm not dumb myself; I scored a 1410 on my SAT and took a lot of APs during my last 2 years. My first 2 years, I screwed myself up, but I came back from it. Will I, who got a C on an AP course, be able to get an A for the same material in college? Thoughts like these concern me. It concerns me that I wasn't born with a natural intelligence.
I'm not concerned about the sacrifices that I hear others talk about, like sacrificing a lot of your social life or just not having the super fun college experience that a college student is supposed to get. I'm concerned that achieving my dream of being accepted into med school and later on becoming a doctor is out of my control because of my "natural intelligence."
This probably seems like a really stupid way of thinking, but I can't help it.