u/FriendlyOddDude_here

I've been dreaming of you ever since I met you almost 2 months ago.

It started raining earlier - profusely. Just straight up pouring out of nowhere, extremely windy too today. The wave of comfort that came over me made me instantly think of you.

I miss you. I miss you all the fucking time. I'm like a dog waiting for his human to come back from work whenever we're not talking. It feels so good to miss someone that awesome like you, tho.

My heart screams to finally tell you.

I will try to tell you tomorrow when we call. I will get drunk tho like a coward AJSISK. Wish me luck.

you know _____, youre the coolest person ive ever met. youre astonishingly funny and intelligent and honestly impressive to the point that its intimidating. your talent is inspiring and so is the way you think. i dont wanna kiss your ass too much lol but being in your company is the most comfortable i have ever felt and its always fun with you. we met pretty recently but i feel like ive known you for ages. im so happy you exist, thanks for spending time with me. and, you know, i love you and shittttt

you know, youre the coolest person i know. and the funniest. if somebody would ask me "whos the person you look up to" your name would INSTANTLY pop into my head. everytime i talk to you or just witness you, you impress me. the way you use your words and form your sentences. your art. your creativity is unmatched and youre unbelievably talented. intelligent to the point that its scary because im not used being around people that understand where im coming from, or dont even try to in the first place. the fact you can laugh about the stupidest and toddler-like bullshit with me but we are also able to talk about the most complex and philosophical concepts. im not trying to shit on your humor btw lol you also laugh about really smart and thought-through jokes AND you make them as well. i know i already mentioned it but youre the funniest motherfucker ever, you have the ability to make anything funny. you are a genuine and amazing person. you never judge me, you never make me feel like i did something wrong or said something weird. your voice is so unique and honestly so fucking hot, i could listen AND I WOULD listen to it all day.

thank you for actually trying to spend time with me. thank you for going out of your way to call with me. thank you for sharing yourself with me. thank you for trying to get to know me. i am very VERY flattered by that :3

i want to just tell you how i feel but apparently i still dont have enough testicle mass for that right now AOISJSKS

The urge to tell you how I feel is growing unbearable.

I can't help to think about - to fantasize about being with you, physically. To look into your eyes, hold your hand. To hug you. To kiss you. To fall asleep and wake up next to you. To just be with you. You don't even know what I would do to be able to do that. My mind and body genuinely craves you.

The fact that my hands start shaking in your company reminds me that pure comfort can go hand in hand with anxiety-inducing excitement.

The conversations we had today... I can tell you're trying to find out... I hope I have been clear enough for you to get it. Besides that, it was reallyyyyy uhmmmm exciting today with you :3

You make me feel comfortable. More than that. Thank you

The mask I needed to survive for my whole entire life isn't needed when I'm with you

Every single atom in my body screams for you. I have genuinely never experienced this. I've been in love before, but wtf. You are all I want. You are all I need. I hope you are doing fine.

You are amazing, do you know that? You really are. I hope you are proud of yourself. I am proud of you.

I think it's gonna happen soon. I will tell you how I feel. I am so fucking scared tho.

You said something today. Something that made it clear you don't know if I'm attracted to your gender. I just didn't think about that. I never made it clear. It explains sooo much. You are scared that I might be unable to be into you like that.

The tension between us. The a-bit-more-than-best-friends connection. And then comes your... circumstances + the fear that I'm straight. I get where that's coming from. I would be scared about that too.

Fortunately for me, you are pretty open with your sexuality. I'm sorry that I ain't so much. I will try to make it clear next time we talk. Next time we talk. Oh man, I love hearing you talk. The words you use, the way you use them. Your voice - oooooh, your voice.

You know, most people (in my experience) just want to be talked about. Be in the spotlight. Want the situation to be about them, and that's it. They want the world to revolve around them. Some people even believe that it already does.

My world revolves around you. And instead of just enjoying that, profiting off of that, you spin with it. Like looking out of a moving car and locking your head and eyes on that one tree - to see it better.

The desire to be seen IS in every single one of us. To not being seen means you're truly alone.

But the desire to see someone else SHOULD be in every single one of us.

It's in you.

Thank you for seeing me.

I see you, too

You know, I've noticed something lately. You start to copy me in some ways. You use phrases I use, words that I use. Phrases and words you never used just 3 weeks ago. Sometimes it even feels like you laugh a bit more like me.

I am NOT calling you a copycat. In fact, you're the most unique and self-thinking person I've ever met.

Honestly; I'm so fucking flattered. Because you are the most inspiring and most impressive dude I ever met. I look up to you, do you know that? I wanna be more like YOU.

You wanting to be more like me is the biggest compliment you could ever make me.

You seem so genuine, so open. Yet, I can see the mask you put on to protect yourself. A mask that probably was needed to survive for most of your life. I really do get that. I really, really do. I love the person I see when your mask slips, tho :3

I wanna tell you so much. I just realized that everytime I loved someone, they confessed to me first. I never had the balls to do it first. But maybe I should do that now.

Dude, I wanna tell you how much I care. Even if I don't have the strength to tell you that I love you (yet), I want to have the strength to tell you how amazing you are. How funny you are. That you are batshit-insanely creative. The way you articulate yourself is impressive and so unique. That I look up to you. You inspire me. The way you never judge anyone. That you can talk to me at any time if you need to, or want to. That I hope you're doing fine. That you are important to me. That I ALWAYS enjoy being in your company. That I actually feel, idk, not alone with you.

Not just because I am so in love with you (which I fucking am), not necessarily as a romantic gesture. But at least as a friend, because I want you to know how amazing you are. That I'm there for you. That you should be proud of yourself. You really should be proud of yourself.

I really wanna have the strength to tell you that. It's just difficult. Everytime I try to open up and genuinely be nice to someone, compliment someone, I justttttttt idk freeze. Like the words are in my brain but I become temporarily dyslexic. Cowardness. Especially when I actually really care about that person, like you. I hate that about myself so much. But I will try that now. I really want you to know how cool you are and that I do care about you

Who knows, maybe I grow enough testicle mass to even tell you that I have feelings for you.

BUT I DO HOPE YOU CONFESS FIRST BECAUSE IM STILL FUCKING SCARED OKI but I'll try.