Avoidant attachment or I actually don’t like my boyfriend? (M20&F20)
I’m not sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore. We’ve been together for nearly a year now, and it’s been a hard year for me due to mental health struggles. I lost nearly all my friends, probably as my social anxiety had come back badly and I also spent nearly every day with my boyfriend.
He treats me amazingly. He drives half an hour everyday there and back just to see me. He is always here for me, and I know he truly cares for me. Yet, I’ve been having feelings of feeling uncomfortable being around him.
I feel like I’ve totally lost myself. I have a history of leaving even when things are perfect, and then regretting it for months later and wondering what I did. I can’t tell if I’m running away from him, or I genuinely dislike him. My gut is telling me that I don’t like him, but I feel like I’m having the same thoughts that I’ve had in previous relationships, when I leave and everything is perfect.
Any advice?