u/Friendly_Corner_430

Has anyone had their OCD where it used to be specific but overtime it just became a fear that you would be able to make anything you think about come into reality. Same with coincidences, they had to be specific ones but now any coincidence freaks you out? I feel like I’m always in a state of worry. Additionally, I used to feel like doing compulsions could keep it from happening but it’s all blurred together to the point I don’t even think that anymore. I have these fears and I’m just convinced they’ll happen and there’s nothing I can do. Compulsions can relieve anxiety but I don’t think it can change the outcome.

Hi! Since I was about 12 years old I’ve struggled with what I think is magical thinking ocd. It all started with me thinking “if x happens, then y will happen” and then it came true. I tried fighting this but then I noticed coincidences everywhere which I believed were signs that it was all true. Then I’d get more intense premonitions and the same thing would repeat. I started testing it with smaller “predictions” and then they’d come true. Everyone that I predicted would unfollow me, actually did. Every photo I predicted would be deleted, got deleted. Everytime I’d think something, it would show up in some way or another in the physical world. I want to believe it’s not real but I keep getting proven that it is. I am worried that if I have gotten all of these things correct, I will just keep getting my worst fears correct. Often times I think I’m losing my mind.