u/Friendly_Okra_4098

I just moved to a new house last summer and I went to a school that didn’t fit me so I switched half way through the year to a new school and at this new school I met a male friend, he’s bisexual and I have never told him I’m gay but it’s kind of obvious we talked abt gay shows like young royals and stuff like that and I was a little conflicted abt liking him but I think it’s just because he’s so available and I’m desperate for someone lmao but I don’t really find him attractive and I hes not on the same maturity level as me imo, he’s also the pastors son so I don’t wanna deal with all that but we had a falling out bc I could tell he rlly liked me an I distanced myself bc I don’t wanna hurt his feelings rejecting him bc he was rlly embarrassed after I found out and was distant so I was matching his energy bc I didn’t wanna over step or anything but it’s akward in class bc he’s friends with like everyone in out class so it’s hard to talk to others without him being like right there (our school is rlly small) but yeah sometimes I’ll be in class thinking ab how easy it would be to have a bf (him) but it wouldn’t be authentic and something that I actually enjoy so I have to cross that out of my mind, idk anyone think I should try to be friends with him again but like make it clear I’m not into him or smth