So we met basically a week ago. He DMed me, and to not be a coward (and not wait a couple more days to finally accept it or never), I answered him. And that's how our conversation developed.
At first I noticed that he maybe had his own unique style of writing, like I was okay with it and I was like 100x more confident with him than I am now (I always lose some confidence with people that I get close to, why). I am smiling while writing about him, thinking about him, everything. I feel so hot. I CAN'T SLEEP.
But anyway - so yeah, he's very nice, I thought like he would be maybe like other boys, maybe didn't care, just type, leave. But he cares about me, because I posted that I was feeling bad and he texted me about it? What the fuck.
This is the first time that someone cares about me like that, like they were asking if I am feeling well because of my posts? Well that's a pity that I got shy and downplayed it but next time maybe I will try to be more honest.
He is a clever guy, plays chess. Like he is quite good at it, I am just a beginner. I just want to learn more about it, then maybe we could play together and maybe on the other hand - impress him that I can play it too? And other things.
I want to keep asking about other things, please, like yeah I get easily scared by people but I really want to know more about him and maybe he could teach me some things?
Of course he thinks of us as friends (I hope) and I only feel weird about it, he can leave anytime, right? It's better to have a lot of friends hahah. Fucking god, by talking to him I think he is saving me from falling, I finally have motivation to do something.
He accepts me for who I am and these things. I just want to say to him "I love you, man". And it's only been a week, what the fuck, considering that I think I have a crush on someone else