I cannot breathe without you 🖤🧿
I see every message you send me, every post you make, every photo you share. I read all your comments and they make me smile and laugh, as well as ache and cry from missing you. Seeing how you interact with others makes me feel closer to you, but also more distant than ever.
Every day is a battle to stay "strong" and "smart", because as much as I DESPERATELY want and need you, my situation hasn't changed and I've already hurt you more than I can bare. And deep down I know that if I respond or reach out, it's only a matter of time before we both end up in pain again.
I just admire you from afar.... touching myself to your posts and to the memory of your voice, watching shows and movies that you recommended, hugging my pillow every night as I send you my love.
I created this account in a moment of weakness with the intention of getting back in touch. I thought long and hard about a username that would make you smile.... god dammit I love your smile. I've written long responses to the posts you made for me but couldn't get myself to send them.
If we were to start talking again, I would take things much slower, for both our sakes. I am still crazy about you in every "singolo" way and I know now more than ever that I will always be in love with you. I can't change my situation right now, but I can't change my heart either. All I can say for sure is that I miss mi chiquitita preciosa and can't imagine my life without her.
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