Your identity lies in who you are to the people you are related with. As someone who doesn' feel like I belong in my family, no friends(never had any to begin with), no relationships, I sometimes feel like I have no identity in the society. I don't even remember the last time when someone called me by my name.
No body ever interacts with me or shows any interest in approaching me. It has always been like this. I am the one trying to start a conversation only for it to never begin because no one even notices me. And the few people who are kind enough to keep the conversation going usually start thinking I'm weird or annoying. The few connections I ever feel with people quickly end up drifting away and they never talk to me again. No matter how much I reflect upon and evaluate myself, I feel like no one finds me likable enough to be called their "friend". Why can't I just be myself when talking to people, it not like I'm deliberately trying to annoy someone. And I am no saint but its not like I am mentally ill or "a bad person"? Am I so weird an annoying that people just can't keep up with me? What am I doing wrong? Am I just supposed to keep my mouth shut forever, and just talk to myself in endless monologues?