ocd thoughts about cat
recently my ocd has been targeting my cat, i first noticed it the other night: i had bought a pack of button batteries and put them in a storage box in my living room and didn’t think much else about them until 3am that night where i was hit with the intense fear that my cat had ate them and was dying. he’s not a cat who eats random things and there would be no way for him to even get in that box but i still had to go and count to make sure they were all there, since then i’ve had to do it every night. then earlier today i put my blanket in the dryer and while lying in bed i was like “the cats in the dryer” he wasn’t obviously but i felt some of the most intense feelings of fear in that moment even though i know it was impossible. i hate that my brains decided to use my cat to torture me, he’s the most important thing ever to me so like i feel so sick. i mainly struggle with themes of harming others and i’m worried its gonna target my cat even more, those thoughts already make me feel sick i don’t think i can handle them being about my cat