I feel just as the title says.
Chinapudu life bavuntunde eh tension pressure lekunda happy ga, nenu studies lo mari antha topper em kadu but avg untunde koncham introvert but frnds degara koncham close unna val degara kadu. Maybe in 3rd class ig I got to know about porn nd all that stuff in a worst way but lite untunde mari antha serious kadhu nenu 7th cls lo unnapudu some love related issue valla school lo paruvu antha foindhi kastha kustha ina impression untunde teachers ki na paina ah issue tarvatha andar dekadam apesaru chillar frnds untunde galli lo smoking alvatu unde 7th lone dani tarvatha na academics anii foinai tarvatha lockdown apude houseshift ayamu ega ekada kotha inti degara evr lekunde motham silent ipoina ega alaa 10th ki ochesariki brathiki undi enduku sasthe ipotadhi ana mindset loki velipoina okaroju my mum saw that I played fruit ninja on my hand ani aroju she cried I still remember how guilty I was I promised her that I'll never repeat that again ani ala alaaa na 10th ipoindi with good marks 9.0 ochindee kushh ipoina inter ki oche sariki Chaduvu ante asal intrest lekunde 2 yrs clg ki pole nen apudu lite tiskuna porn interlo addiction ga maripoindi epatiki kuda intlo pichi lesi chepesa chadva nenu ani em chestv education lekapothe em undadhu ra elago la inter ite complete chey anaru sare ani inter complete chedam ankuna 1st yr backlogs unde 2 nd yr vi unde ee year eh clear chesa backlogs ee inter lo unnapudu oka ammai parichayam inde frnd indi tharvatha gf indhi thanatho anni share cheskune vadni literally anni late night chats, calls anni oka 1.5 yr tarvatha evdo boy bestie valla chinna chinna godavalu st inai ega vere vere reasons valla we are not together anymore I had a female frnd they fought na female frnd nd gf nd they both gave me a option edarlo okarni choose ani ani ega I choose gf then same situation came she had to choose btwn me nd her so called best frnd she chose him I still loved her so I stayed with her but I never liked that she talked with him egaa vere konni reasons valla we broke up atp I was sucidical em avatledu na valla Chaduvu ledu , kali ga untuna, evrina relative's em chestunadu mi babu ante they had no answer cuz one year gap ochinde inter backlogs valla i was making them ashamed I was mentally dead ega na valla kad ee life nen untene inka ekuva badhapadtaru nen lekapothe alvatu cheskuntaru ani I tried to kms but dairyam ledu I tried for like one week avaledu . Tarvtha frnds help koncham vere vala help tiskoni koncham okay inde it's not even like I'm too dumb ani but I wasted my potential ega elina edokati cheyali at least parents kosam ina ani anipinchidi ee year inter backlogs clear chesa EAMCET oka mukka kuda prep avaledu Friday exam idk wt I'm even gonna do if I don't get decent rank my parents are not gonna afford the fee to pay for my studies I'm deeply addicted to the porn now I can't get out of it I tried many times but avatledu I almost wasted 2 yrs of my life idk what's gonna happen I plan to many things but edi avadhu I end up where I started I feel very miserable now don't have anyone to say all this so just ranting it all here I'm so sorry if you don't understand my language.