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Few things are haunting me these days on recalling my childhood, it was never easy ups and downs , but getting some thoughts now

I was 13 back then , we shifted to a home which was on the 1st floor , so right next to our home there was a room where a man who used to stay , he was soft and nice and alone probably came here for his job, who was married but his family was in different city ,

My mom a little extrovert made a move and they started getting to know about eachother,

I was so common with them being close ,since he was younger than mom , and they used to have good Convo everyday

Now the things doesn't seem appropriate,

I observed her sharing all the household problems and all she is been experienced,

He was understanding her well and she was so comfortable with that guy

So my home and his room both was in 1st floor so we had common balcony, they both used to sit on stairs and used to talk for hours , sometimes with no lights , in the dark .

He was shirtless and used to wear boxers yet mom was comfortable with him ,

Once I felt that he was drunk by smell

I told mom about it and she defended him saying he is health conscious and he drinks fruit juice I my self saw him making that and all ,,

So I was so normal , she used to find reasons to sit in balcony and he used to come down late night talks upto 10pm , suddenly when my dad comes from work they suddenly see him coming and run back to their homes ,

Now I feel that it was not a normal friendship it wa something else ,,,

They were close for more than a year

When he had to shift the city , mom cried a lot that day

Good thing is they are not in touch now

But this story has stuck with me

Probably it was an emotional affair,,...

Naku ela start cheyali ani ardam avadam ledhu but I’ll try to tell you and share something with you.

The last two years changed my life, but the biggest transformation happened between 21 and 22(age).

A year ago, I was struggling, getting discouraged, and wondering if any of my efforts would ever pay off.

Today, I run my own marketing agency, work on PR for major politicians( I can’t tell those names but there are the most influential ), bought my first iPhone, my dream Royal Enfield, and most importantly... my parents are proud of me.

One moment I'll never forget happened a few months ago.

Oka roju early morning ma mother nidra lepi padha bayataki veldham ani chepindhi

Okay ani vella.

We went to a silver shop. She picked a pair of anklets and simply said, "Bill pay cheyi"

She never asked if I had enough money.

She never even thought about it.

All she knew was that her son would take care of it.

At that moment, I felt like I had won.

Inthakante Inka em kavali ?

During this journey, I also met someone with a beautiful heart. One conversation with that anna completely changed my mindset. That small push at the right time gave me confidence I never knew I had. I'll always be grateful for that.

Right now, I’m traveling, enjoying life, and preparing to relaunch my marketing agency this time with a much bigger vision: helping brands grow from zero to hero through branding, marketing, and PR.

If you’re reading this while you’re struggling, please don’t stop.

One year can change everything❤️☺️

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I met a beautiful girl in late 2024 at a networking event in Hyderabad, after my graduation. Later found out we stayed in the same PG. We started talking, just as friends. I was going through a bad breakup at that time (the relationship got extremely toxic and I broke up and blocked my ex). My ex sent me emails, called from different numbers, kind of abusive and all. This girl helped me go through it all. This girl also came out of a long term toxic relationship. At that time, I had decided and also casually told her that I would never date anyone to marry, I would genuinely never even marry and all that stuff (I still am that way). Even though I was upfront about my preferences, I managed to go out on dates. She sometimes even helped me go on dates with other girls as my wing girl. Our circle got bigger as her friend group and mine merged because of our friendship.

I seek peace. I would say "sorry, you are right" and walk away even when the other person has wrong views. But I love deep conversations, only when the other person can understand different perspectives and can express well. She's perfect in that aspect. She's deep, so deep for my heart to not melt lol. No discussion of ours turns into an argument even if we completely disagree on something. I respect such people. Though I started liking her, I didn't go through with that for a reason. But our dynamic had gradually shifted into platonic flirting. And.... we started dating. Nothing too serious, we've let each other know we like each other and just decided to see where it takes us.

She works at a big tech company and earns a lot. I used to just waste my money on useless courses and was basically aavaara. She encouraged me to build my portfolio and apply for jobs. She guided me to practicality when I was wandering in creative freedom seeking mindset. Even though now I work remotely at a startup, doing multiple things at once in that company, it's so fun. I'm thankful to her for that.

I moved back to my native city in January to take care of a dumb property dispute in my mom's side of the family. But I'm still here after it because I work remotely and got a bit comfortable at home lol. Five days ago, she told me she's moving to Canada to work for the company she's in. >!Surprisingly, it brought me relief, even though I like her. Even I was shocked by the way I felt. She's perfect lifelong partner material. Anyone would say I am fumbling.!<

She's coming to visit this weekend, to meet me once before she leaves for Canada. The city I am in doesn't have many places worth visiting. She just told me the city doesn't seem bad for a one-day visit. She's going to drive alone for around 300 kilometers just to meet me! She's someone who likes me for who I am. I got nothing written on me that says "stable" lol. Quite the opposite actually. She earns a lot and she even comes from money. Her family is well off, if not rich. Her family is quite liberal. I've visited them several times. >!She says she'll come to India in a few months just to visit me again. She hasn't even gone to Canada yet, and still planning to visit me again! I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt her. I feel terrible.!<

>!Reason for my dilemma: I am 22 now and will turn 23 next month. She turned 30 four months ago. We were talking one day around the middle of last year, and I told her "You check all my boxes, I would've definitely dated you if I was older." She looked me deep in the eyes and asked "What's stopping you now?" That's how it started.!<

Hey everyone!

I'll be turning 21 in exactly one month, and it got me thinking about whether there are things I should experience, learn, or start doing before entering this new phase of life.

I'm looking for suggestions beyond the usual "party" or "travel." It could be anything:

Financial habits (investing, credit cards, emergency fund)

Career advice (internships, networking, resume, LinkedIn)

Health & fitness

Books or skills worth learning

Relationships and friendships

Life lessons you wish someone had told you at 20

Experiences you think everyone should have

Mistakes to avoid

If you had to make a list of the top 10 things every Indian should do before turning 21, what would be on it?

Would love to hear your experiences, regrets, and advice. Thanks in advance!

(Plays Beautiful Things by Benson Boone in the background)

Em andi pasandida aurat garu? Ela unnaru? Antha Kushalamena?

Em cheseru enti America 250th birthday weekend ki? I happened to catch an interesting world cup game. Kiss cam em lekunde kani, next time manam velettapud ki pettiddam le. (Bloody cringe ik lol)

Someone asked me if I was going to go watch the fireworks 🎆 today, but I played it off cool they're just fireworks not a biggie ani but yeah there are certain things you can't do alone kada haha. I can go sit in a restaurant or cafe alone and even go watch a movie alone kani, definitely can't go watch a fireworks show alone ga, rather have your hand in mine and your head on my shoulder whilst we watch it.

Anyways, I sat and watched this new movie "Voicemails for Isabelle" on Netflix instead. Best romcom I've watched in a long time!

Towards the end of the movie there's this dialog "maybe sometimes life rigs things in our favour" ani and it stuck with me. For the longest time I'd been super unhappy with life in general, it felt like my life peaked with a 10gpa in tenth grade and everything has been downhill ever since. Everything I did felt like I was selling myself short and was punching way below my weight. Like I could have amounted to something but I'm just something fathoms below.

But emo call it maturity or whatever you'd like now, I've found this new found gratitude for life, don't get me wrong I have my quibbles with life and I'm not the kind who "settles" for things but idk ig I wouldn't go back and replace anything in the past because the things I never saw all this while brew and develop over the years are the things I'm grateful for and I wouldn't change a thing about it.

Life's had its ups and downs, twists and turns but as SRK says in Om Shanti Om, anth mein sab kuch thik ho jata Hai "happies endings" and agar nahi hua tho picture abhi baaki hai mere dost haha. He's also said pyaar dosti hai, so will you be my best friend? 👉👈

So chuddam lets see how we'd bump into each other, I'm curious ngl haha. Let's see how life's rigged that part of it lol. Maybe I'd run on the streets of my favorite city whilst its raining on New Year's eve just to tell you that I love you and that I can't imagine spending the rest of my life with anyone else other than you. (When Harry met Sally Stylez)

Now I just need to become hot, rich and get a new workphone like Wes in the movie. JK JK I'd rather have your sibling alive and kicking so that we could roast you together.

Anyways till next time........

Itlu,

Your (I'm too cool for fireworks) Man

P.S. Belated Happy Birthday America! 🇺🇲🎂🥳

Today idhi rendo postuu malli oka one week varaku kanapadanu🌝

Round 1:

Matter loki vaste adhi 6th class chadhive time maa class loki oka kotha ammayi vachindi let us call her "aishwarya". Valla mother and maa mother colleagues ante iddaru maa school lo teachers maa amma ayithe maa floor ki incharge. Anduke aa year antha aa ammayini choostu brathikesa but 7th class lo elagaina dare CHESI nenu dachukunna 50 rs lo maa oori mangalavaram market lo rold gold chain konna adhi teesukuni poyi direct aishwarya ki ivvakunda maa frnd inko ammayi untadhi let us call her " Kusuma" nenu velli kusuma ki icha aishwarya ki ivvu ani cheppa idantha kangaarulo Cheppa ante malli evaraina chooste ( main ga maa amma) nannu chekkestaru ani . Kusuma direct velli maa ammaki ichindi anthe maatash . 7th class half yearly exams appudu love letter raasi direct aishwarya ke icha tanu kooda velli maa ammake ichindi . Inka maa amma nannu hostel lo vesindhi.

Round 2:

8th,9th,10th ala gadisipoyindhi . Inter lo unnappudu aishwarya maa clg ki vachindi first time hostel kada chala homesick ga undedhi akkada telisina vadini nenu okkadine so nathone ekkuva matladedhi. Slowly relationship loki poyam ( Nibba - Nibbi) and it continued till my engineering 3rd year tarwata breakup cheppindi tanu tappem ledu le she endured my laziness, arrogance , everything and nenu realise ayye time ki she decided to leave and nenu kooda ok anna.

Round 3:

Breakup ayina tarwata 3 years gap teesukunna like evarini kelakaledhu chance unna and inko 6 months lo max abroad pothunna higher studies ki anduke ee lopu maa company HR ki try cheddam anukuntunna 🌝.

Bless me guys😌

Heard my roomie and her bf moan, hope it doesn't get awkward the nxt time we run into eachother in the kitchen 😭😭

Hi. Guys. Happy weekend to you all.

If anyone is up. We can talk about GOT or any TV show. Since 2 days i am listening GOT opening credits theme in loop gives goosebumps.

1. To become the best version of myself 🌱

2. Inner peace over external validation

3. More solo coffee dates, slow mornings, and meaningful conversations ☕

4. Build wealth that creates freedom

5. A successful and fulfilling career (currently handling family business and pursuing mba)

6. Confidence that doesn't depend on anyone's opinion

7. Consistency in workouts and self-care

8. Eat whole food, less junk

9. Solo adventures and memorable trips

10. Genuine friendships that last

11. Finish 25 books (fiction, obviously 😂📚)

12. Read with intention, scroll with moderation

13. Courage to take risks and chase opportunities.

14. A life filled with purpose, not just busy days. ✨

15. Better communication

16. Better emotional intelligence

17. Finding joy in ordinary days

18. Stop overthinking

19. Cook more, learn more

20. Watching more beautiful sunsets, trying new cafés, and appreciating life's little moments. 🌅☕

21. Ending the year as someone my 21-year-old self would be proud of

22. Gratitude for everything that has happened, everything happening now, and everything that's on its way :)

Monna ma cousin ki delivery ayyindi .baby inka mum iddaru healthy ga unnaru inthavarku baundi aithe puttindi babu ani telisaaka andharu happy kani ma baava face choodali vaadipoindi paapam puvvu laaga.ammay ayyunte baundu ra ani dull ayyadu koddiga.vaadiki istam le aadapilla ante anduke ala aipoyaru .atla kaadule bava yevarite enti healthy gane unnaruga iddaru manchiga chooskovali anattu edho cheppesa a time ki. Okappdu abbay puttali ani okate saavagottevaru intlo vallu ammayni aakadiki yedho chetilo unattu a decision ippdu choodandi maarutunnay rojulu .

Tbh ma baave kadhu nenu kuda ammay ayyunte baundu ankunna 🫠.idigo eskokandi nannu ippdu cheptunna anthe oorike yevaru occhina adhe love tho penchutam alludu enti kiralu ento yevrnna okate ❤️

I’m travelling in train and this one guy is snoring loud af. Everyone around us is awake lmao. ppl saying “entraa ee gola”😭😭. He has changed atleast 3 tunes till now everytime train gives a strong jerk and still going. This one guy next to us banged on train so he wakes up from noise, but he dont. Naaku kooda nidra poyindi inka

I know most people here have probably never heard of this app.

It's called TV Time, and it's shutting down before July 15.

It's basically an app that lets you track TV shows and movies, but I mostly used it for TV shows. After every episode I'd mark it as watched, it reminded me where I left off if I stopped watching for weeks or months, and it slowly became part of my daily routine. I also loved reading the memes, reviews, and discussions after every episode.

I've been using it for around 5–6 years, so seeing the shutdown announcement last night genuinely shocked me. I know it's "just an app," but after using something almost every day for years, you end up forming a weird attachment to it.

What makes me even sadder is that I honestly would've paid for it if that meant keeping it alive. It's one of the very few apps I've consistently used for years.

I guess I'm just disappointed. It feels weird knowing that something that's been part of my routine for so long is just... disappearing.

Anyway, this post isn't really about the app itself. It's more about my feelings, and I just wanted to vent for a bit. 😅

Thanks for reading. I know it's just an app... but to me, it was a great one, and I'll genuinely miss it. 💛

i will miss this

Especially that shin ramyun and that buldak bullshit. All kinds of variatios/flavours. Malli avi chese different recipes okati add aindi. Weekly three to four times. And okko packet 150 to 200 rupees!!! Fuck me. My diet is ultra clean in absolutely all the aspects, except this. Nenu chala strict with my diet, workout and rest routine. Even though it doesn't show in my physique and all because of my routine, I can see how unhealthy it could be in the long term. Nen kani pothe, this would be the main reason.

Gonna be 20 tomorrow. 🥳🤩🤣🙂🙃🥲😥☹️🫤🫤😕😨😰🫣😱. So overwhelming. Appude 20 vachay naaku. It's just been 2 or 3 months since my 19th. Appude 20th ela vachindhi?? Edo teliyani Bhayam start aiyyindi past 1 month nundi. Ela undabotundi na life ani. I gotta act fast. We just bought a house recently and it's gonna take a minimum of 26 years to clear that debt. If all 4 of us work hard. Daanitho unna bhayam inkoncham ekkuva aiyyindi. Next GF. Just indaake we had an argument about our family issues. I support my mom and she supports hers. Obviously. This is the 1st serious argument between us btw. It was on Instagram but believe me if it was face to face i might've just stood silent or bailed on her. Instagram kabatti edo matladaanu and seems like i win that argument but matter enti ante, i felt that anxiety feeling in me. My legs shook and my heart was racing. Idi preview maatrame Inka ponu ponu future lo ela face chestaanoo. And next, family. There are some issues with my parents and my grandparents(maternal, and paternal too ig, but let's focus on maternal for now). Intaka mundu ante pillalam maatho peddaga cheppevallu kaadu and maalu kuda peddaga emi teleedu but ippudu pedda avutunnam kada, i got cursed like everyone. Being able to understand everything clearly about what's happening. Appudu Inka anxiety feeling chaala perigipoyindi. But I'm an expert in bottling up anything so I controlled myself. And I again felt like, "it's just a preview of adulthood. You'll get used to it" . But Ippude naaku inta bhayam vestunte Inka ecta bhayam vestundi and i might have a real panic attack. Na parents ela face chestunnaro?? Nenu valla laga strong kaadu. If this is adulthood and this goes on and on. I might end up having those panic or anxiety or whatever attacks. Adulthood's gonna be scary but I'll try to face it as best as I can. Don't y'all dare wish me happy birthday btw. You can if you want but I don't feel birthdays are something special. It's just another day of your life.

This is my first and probably my last post on reddit.

lengthy ga undabothundhi, please bear with me, chaala kudhinchi kudhinchi raasthunna. asalu mottham chadhuvutharo ledho ani doubt ga undhi😂.

Na gurinchi small intro:

introvert, no friends, assalu matladanu, food ishtam undadhu, thiragadam ishtam undadhu, thaagadam ishtam undadhu, no emotions, no caring.

no social media except one fake twitter account and reddit. cinemalu series lu okappudu udhyamam la choose vaadni, ippudu avi kuda no interest.

## first love

School nundi ma classmate naaku ishtam unde, but eppudu thana venta padale, ekkuvga matladale, ishtam ani cheppale.

10th aipoyindhi, inka thanu eppadiki kalavadhu anukunna.

Btech 1st year lo facebook lo thanu message chesindhi hi ani, inka appatinundi chat cheskovadam, school vishayaalu matladukovadam ayyindhi.

thanaki kuda school nundi nenate ishtam ani cheppindhi, tharvatha inka memu okay anukunnam.

thanu kuda konchem na type a, very silent and introvert. eppudaina call cheskunna em matladalo thelvakunde, just hi, thinnava, unnava anthe.

konni months tharvatha I said, we should breakup, manaki antha age ledhu, gauge ledhu, nannu nene chooskolenu, care undadhu na nundhi and vaalla intlo assalu oppukoru, so anni years relationship lo undi ni time waste na time ani.

chaala manchi ammai, chaala edchindhi breakup oddhu ani.

naaku thanu chaala ishtam unde but last ki pelli avvakapothe thanani mosam chesinattu avthadhi ani breakup cheppina, thanaki e reason em cheppale.

Btech 1st year tharvatha, oka incident happened that turned my family and my life upside down.

The most kind, the most beautiful, only person who loved me to the moon no matter what, left us.

baita paddhathiga unna, ma ammatho full allari chese vaadni, thittinchukune vaadni, only thanatho maathrame full matladevaadni. ma father tho nak bonding ledhu.

friends ki cheppale, evvarki cheppale, andhartho matladatam maanesaanu.

nen breakup cheppadaaniki idhi kuda one of the main reasons(maaku doctors mundhe cheppaaru, nenu inka e prema dhoma mood lo lenu).

Then I fell into depression, 18-25 na life nundi poyayi, I lost interest in life, nothing excited me.

daily only once thine vaadni, weight kuda 32-35 ala undevaadni. almost anni sleepless nights. prathi roju edchevaadni.

at one point I tried seppuku😂 evo tablets chaala veskunna.

aah 7 years em cheyale, college ki velladam, intiki raavadam, evvartho matladale.

college aipoyaaka software job lo join ayya, akkada kuda office ki velladam pani chooskovadam, intiki raavadam.

although I still loved her, I did not message her in those 7 years. thanani granted ga theeskunna.but ekkado chinna hope unde nakosam wait chesthadhi ani.

nenu peddha rajnikanth mari nakosam wait cheyadaniki🤦‍♂️

slowly started recovering and thanu nannu still ishtapadthunte marriage cheskundhama ani adugudham ani prepare avthunna.

appudu na friend dhwaara thelsindhi that she fell in love with her college classmate ani.

first okay le, nen thanani pattinchukole kadha, its okay atleast she is happy anukunna.

but day by day slow ga hit avvadam start ayyindhi, malli sleepless nights start ainai,

last ki thanane adigina, thanu kuda avunu ani confirm chesindhi.

cinemaallo gunde baruvekkadam laanti dialogues vasthe, veellu veella overaction anukune vaadni.

first time experienced gunde baruvekkadam. paatalu vintunte lyrics artham avvadam start ayyindhi😂.

malli inko 1 year bokka.

then my friend okadu thanaki thelsina ammai(sister) ki ma office lo jobs emaina unnayemo choodamani adigindu.

thanu em chesindhi, thana skills adigina, vaadu nak thelvadhu nuvve adugu ani he gave me her number.

## second love

chaala manchi ammai( super cute, no social media, no overaction, simple ga undatam ishtam, chaala caring, chaala emotional, very private person )

first call a 2hrs, na life lo first time oka person tho 2hrs call matladatam.

konni days tharvatha she started messaging me. Nen kuda casual ga chat chese vaadni.

thane message chesedhi, thane convo intitate chesedhi, nak em ishtam, cinemalu, series etc

she started asking everything, funny ga chat cheskune vaallam.

slow ga schoolmate ni marchipovadam start cheshna.

konni days tharvatha she started calling me.

konni months daily call, prathi roju call chesedhi, minimum 2hrs, mostly thane edho okati matladedhi nenu vinevaadni.

e premalo unnavaalli gantalu gantalu em matladukuntaru ra, oka 5 mins ke chiraaku vasthadhi anukunevaadni.

mana dhaaka vacche varaku artham kaadhu.

slow ga thanu nacchadam start ayyindhi. maamooluga kaadhu picchi picchiga nacchindhi. evvarki share cheskoni vishayaalu thanaki share cheyadam start cheshna.

konni days tharvatha edho oka incident lo flow nak thanante ishtam ani vacchindhi.

saagadheesi adigithe avnu ishtam ani cheppina.

thanu nenu antha worthy kaadhu, nik manchi ammai vasthadhi, nen ninnu ala anukoledhu, oka brotherly and friendly feeling tho unna annadhi.

she never called me anna/bro.

nenu inka naaku nuvvante ishtam nen try cheskunta ani cheppina.

she kept saying time waste cheskoku manam friends ga undham, nak ishtam ledhu ani chepthunde.

nenu sarle try cheskundham future lo aina thanaki nen nacchuthanemo anukunna.

naaku first time dhairyam vacchindhi thanani baaga chooskogalugutha and vaalla parents ni oppinchagalugutha ani.

caring, affection ivem naaku thelvadhu but nerchukunta ani cheppina.

Inni rojulu emotionless ga unna naaku malli anni feelings start ayyaayi.

thanu caring and affection baaga expect chesthadhi, neelo avi lenandhuku neetho maatladindhi anta.

konni days tharvatha naaku already boyfriend unnadu, college nundi love naadhi ani cheppindhi.

nak em jarigina thanathone share cheskunta, na life lo most important person thanu ani cheppindhi.

malli gunde barivekkadam start ayyindhi.

mari endhuku cheppale naaku ani adigithe, endhuku cheppaali nik reason, nak ishtam undadhu na personal life share cheskovadam andhuke nen evvarki cheppanu ani andhi.

thanaki chaala mandhi propose chesaru ani appudu cheppindhi. neela naaku chaala mandhi propose chesaru andharki okay chepkunta pothana ani annadhi.

malli sleepless nights started, e saari dosage ekkuvaindhi, edavadam kuda start ayyindhi.

funny ga cheppadaaniki try chesthunna kaani chaala ante chaala baadhaga undhi.

chinna vasthuvu konadaaniki adhi worthy aah kaadha ani vandha saarlu aalochisthadhi thanu. so e decision aalochinchakunda em theeskoni undadhu.

sarle thanaki already vere athanni ishtapadithe inka nenem chestha, matladakunda undham ani cheppina.

I started missing her, eppudu thana gurinche aalochinche vaadni.

Nen marchipovali ante neetho matladakunda undaali ani cheppina, but thanu asalu pattinchukunedhi kaadhu, malli normal ga message chesedhi, call chesedhi.

Nen entha serious ga cheppina, oka 2 days aagi malli call chesedhi.

kavalante nuv enthaina try chesko nen maathram padanu adhi maathram guarantee ani cheppedhi.

oka one month time theeskoni marchipo, manam malli friends ga undham, nen na life lo friend ga undamani evvarki kosam edvale ni kosam edchina, naaku ni friendship vadhulkovalani ledhu ani cheppindhi.

Nak antha opika ledhu, nak ammailu friends leru, avasaram kuda ledhu, manam matladukovoddhu ani gattiga cheppina.

oka one week maatladale, malli call chesi normal ga matladindhi, nak nuv stranger vi kaadhu, nik nacchina nacchakapoina nen call chestha ani andhi.

nenu sarle melli melliga messages, calls thaggiddham anukunna.

naaku thananki message cheyalani unna kuda aapukunevaadni.

roju thana gurinche aalochanalu, ishtam baaga perigipoyindhi.

then scene completely reverse ayyindhi.

nenu message cheyadam start chesanu, thanu avoid cheyadam start chesindhi. late replies or no replies ki vacchindhi.

entha try cheshna thana meedha ishtam pothaledhu, oka 1 month nenu message cheyale, thanu malli message chesindhi friends ga undham, endhuku ivanni last ki nuvve baadha padthav.

nak full clarity undhi nenu ninnu ishtapadanu naaku already vere athanu ishtam, ippudu ninnu ishtapadithe naadhi elanti character aithadhi ani andhi.

first lo thanu full interested ga undedhi kaluddham ani, nenu no ani overaction chesevaadni(naaku konchem insecurity start ayyindhi, height thakkuva 5'3 thanaki nacchuthano ledho ani).

ippudu nenu kaluddham ani entha adigina, thanu no way, inthakamundhu ante nik na meedha feeling ledhu kabatti okay, ippudu manam meet aithe baagundadhu.

ninnu meet aithe ma madhya godavalu start aithai oddhu annadhi.

first ammayi thanu vere athanni ishtapaduthunna ani cheppinappudu baadha padina but accept chesi thanani marchipoina.

but ippudu thinu kuda adhe cheppina kuda I am not able to forget her, almost 2 years aithundhi.

ippudu malli normal ga matladukuntunnam messages cheskuntunnam( thanu messaage chesthene reply isthunna, na anthaki nenu call chesthalenu).

naaku thana meedha ishtam pothaledhu, na prayathanaalu nen cheskuntunna, thanu maathram blatant ga no chepthundhi, nuv entha try chesina waste ani.

nenu lenappudu theeskunna decision adhi, idhi unfair ante nik antha scene ledhu le anindhi😭. nik kavalsina qualities konni naalo kuda unnai kadha ante, appudu mundhi parichayam ayyundaali anindhi. devudiki thelsu evarki em ivvalo ani philosophy lu chepthundhi.

thanu thidithe baaguntadhi😂.

thanu vaadi gurinche emanna chepthe aah roju mottham na mood spoil aithadhi, nak jealous feeling undhani ippude artham aithundhi.

All I know is that they love each other very much. Vaadu chaala manchodu ayyuntadu, thana evvarni padithe vallani dhaggarki raanivaadhu.

ippudu na questions and I need your perspectives, suggestions:

1. to girls evaraina idhi chadhivuthunte, did she really treat me as a brother? thanu a point lo aina nannu ishtapadi untadha?

thanani okasaari adigina (tere ishq mein cinema dialogue vaadina) nannu eppudaina preminchava, okka kshanam aina ani, she said no😭.

2. should I pursue her? is it morally correct? (everything is fair in love and war antaru kadha)

3. shoudl I leave her, thanani block chesi matladakunda undaala? (although I am not sure if I will be able to forget her)

4. naadhi asalu true prema ne antara? (attraction anukune age aithe definite ga kaadhu I am 27 now)

prapancham lo ammaile lenattu overaction chesthunnav anukovochhu but e time ki naaku prapancham lo thanokkatthe kanipisthundhi.

evvari meedha interest vasthaledhu. gundelo paathukupoyindhi.

Inokarni ishtapade antha opika ledhu, naaku thelsina vidhyalanni vaadesaanu thana kosam, inka na dhaggara energy ledhu.

I don't think I will ever love anybody like I love her.

my plan before falling for her was, after ma chelli pelli I wanted to quit my job and work for a nonprofit organization far away from my place or go to himalayas.

thanu connect aina tharvatha naaku na life meedha hope vacchindhi, I wanted to take care of her, I wanted to give her everything, I wanted to explore the world with her.

6. sambandhaalu vasthunnai, choodakundane no chepthunna, nak pelli ishtam ledhu(except thinatho), should I try them?

7. ivanni time waste yevvaaraalu go back to my original plan antara?

Note: second ammaini inthavaraku direct ga choodaledhu, first ammaini kuda just 2 times kalisaanu after we said okay to each other, adhi kuda friends tho kalisi edho cinema ki poinam.

inkemanna suggestions or life lessons peddha vaallu isthe motivate avvadaaniki siddham.

సంగతి ఏంటంటే, ఈరోజు బైక్ లో పెట్రోల్ అయిపోయింది.

Exactly half a kilometer before myhome mangala bpcl

The good part?
If I pushed it for just 50 meters, there was a nice slope leading all the way down to the BPCL bunk. So I started pushing.

Then started the line-up of Hyderabad's finest men:

1. The Corporate Professional: Approaches me in proper English—"Hey, you want me to push?" I smiled and said it’s okay, so he left.

2. The Polite Local: Realized I’m a Telugu guy and came with pure respect—"నెట్టమంటారండి?"

3. The Pure Telangana Bhai: Absolute legend. He didn't even ask. Straight up said—"నేను దొబ్బుతా* భయ్యా, నువ్వు* కూర్చో దొబ్బుతా ఏం కాదు!" Assala odalledu! He pushed it with pure heart.

Slope లో slow గా వెళ్లి పెట్రోల్ కొట్టించాక, I felt so happy.

It instantly reminded me of Yogi Vemana's classic lines:

ఉప్పు కప్పురంబు నొక్క పోలిక నుండు
చూడ చూడ రుచుల జాడ వేరు
పురుషులందు పుణ్య పురుషులు వేరయా...

On the outside, everyone in this bustling city looks the same—busy, rushing to work, caught up in their own lives. But when you are stuck on the road, the "Punya Purushulu" (the truly helpful souls) show their true colors.
Shoutout to everyone who stops to help a stranger on the road.

You guys make this city amazing! 😃

I usually play badminton with my friends on weekends. One weekend, we were short of one player, so I created a game on Playo. One guy joined, I shared the court details, and the four of us played.

After the game, he asked only me to go for coffee or dinner. I told him I was already going with my friends (the same people who played badminton) and even invited him to join us. He refused, saying he had some urgent work.

From the very next day, he started asking me out for coffee almost every day. I kept politely saying I was busy or gave other reasons for 3-4 days because I wasn't interested.

Finally, he directly asked me out on a date. I politely told him that I'm not interested in dating or being in a relationship right now.

Instead of accepting the rejection, he started trying to convince me. I even told him that another girl who played badminton with us was actually interested in dating, thinking that would end the conversation. But he insisted that he wanted to take me on a date.

After rejecting him again, this is the exact message he sent:

**"Nuvvemina pedha figure ankuntunava enti? Edo date ki invite chestha antha pogaru chupistunav."**

Then i just said Thanks for confirming I made the right decision and blocked him.

Seriously? All I did was politely say no.

I never insulted him, led him on, or disrespected him. I simply wasn't interested.

What disappoints me isn't that he asked me out there's nothing wrong with that. It's how quickly respect disappeared the moment he heard "no."

Girlies, if you ever want to see someone's true colours, reject them once and pay attention to how they handle it. A respectful person accepts your answer and moves on. Someone who immediately resorts to insults is showing you exactly who they are.

A polite rejection shouldn't bruise someone's ego this much. Respect shouldn't depend on whether you get a "yes."

So, here’s what happened.

I used to have three really good friends during my B.Tech. We were very close until I got a gf. Naturally, I started spending a lot of time talking and texting her. But I never ignored my friends I always made time for them too.

Then one day, while I was talking to my gf on the phone, one of my friends started making comments about her. It really pissed me off, so I stopped talking to him. I knew I wasn’t in the wrong, so I expected him to apologize, but he never did. We slowly drifted apart.

Since I was already a bit distant from other guys, those three became even closer, and I started feeling like they were ignoring me.

Things were okay until another incident happened. Two of them borrowed my bike. I had already told them that I needed it because I was going out to meet my gf. They didn’t come back on time, and I called them countless times, but neither of them answered. I was worried because she was waiting for me. When they finally came back, they casually said they were talking to some random friend. That really frustrated me, so I shouted at them and left.
After some time, I realized I shouldn’t have shouted. I apologized and started talking to them again, but the friendship was never the same after that.

Eventually, B.Tech ended. For almost three months after graduation, I felt like I was the only one trying to keep the friendship alive. I was always the one calling or texting, while they seemed completely uninterested.

They were all into a particular game, so I even installed it just so I could spend time talking and playing with them. I even started talking to the first friend again.

Months passed, and one day I wanted to meet them.

The first guy said he couldn’t come because his dad would scold him for going out in the summer heat.

The second guy said he had to study 24/7.

The third guy said he’d only come if the other two came.

That honestly made me feel bad because they couldn’t spare even a little time for me. What hurt even more was that the three of them met several times without even telling me.

Then another incident happened. I tagged one of them in a funny “gay” meme/video just to troll him, the way friends usually joke around. He got offended, and all three of them started attacking and abusing me over it. Their reason was that his family follows him, and if they saw him tagged, they’d think badly of him.

From my perspective, it was obviously just a joke, and I felt like any educated person would understand that. Still, I realized that he genuinely got hurt, so I immediately untagged him and apologized. Once again, I was the one trying to fix things.

Later, while we were playing a game, I jokingly called one of them “kukka.” He got offended and said he’d “take it personally” if I called him that again. I was honestly shocked because I meant it in a playful way, the way close friends tease each other.

At that point, I started wondering, “Am I even your friend if I have to think twice before saying every single thing?” I was literally playing that game only because I wanted to spend time with them, but it felt like they never understood my intentions.
I got so frustrated that I deleted the game. But even after that, I was still the one who went back and tried talking to them again.

Fast forward to today.

I’m finally free and wanted to meet them because I genuinely miss them. But once again, they don’t seem interested.

I asked one friend, and he said he has exams next Friday. He told me he was planning to take a break on Sunday, so I suggested taking the break on Thursday instead because I have work on Sunday. He simply said, “Nah bro, I can’t.”

Then I asked the second guy if we could plan something, and he literally went offline.

At this point, I honestly feel like I’m the only person putting any effort into this friendship. It feels like they wouldn’t even care if I disappeared.

What makes it worse is that they often talk badly about me and even troll my ex gf. (We broke up on good terms,) and it really annoys me when they do that, but I usually ignore it because I don’t want more arguments.

I’m just tired.

I genuinely believed these people were my true friends. I don’t really have many friends offline or online besides them, so losing this friendship hurts a lot.

Sometimes I even start wondering if I’m the problem. But then I look back and realize that every time something went wrong, I was the one who reached out first, apologized when I felt I was wrong, tried to reconnect, planned meetups, installed games just to spend time with them, and kept putting in effort.

I honestly don’t know what else I can do.

TLDR : Naku inka type chese opika ledhu anniya chadavakapothe odiley.

Emo em ardm katle mama. Life etu pothundho ardm katledhu. Growth ah leni job lo 3 years ga chesthunna. Quit avdhaam ante intlo vaddu antaaru..malli civils raayi antaaru... okkate torture. Life lo inka clarity raale neenu em cheyaali ani. Life lo edhi cheyaali anna okkati kooda avvatle entha try chesina kooda. Chiraaku vachesthundhi. Ivanni alochisthe nidra kooda ratle andhuku ee post. Sorry guys ikkada varaki chadinandhuku.

Ee year lo 50% aipoyindi but chaala lessons nenu last year varaku realise avvalenidi ee 50% of 2026 lo realise ayyaanu.

1. Strangers ni nammakudadu okavela nammina kuda mana juttu ni vaalla chethilo pettakudadu.

2. Friends nunchi vache red flags ni poni le ani ignore cheykudadu.

3. Mana kosam evar undaru mana family tappa.

4. Manakemaina problem oste, our first go-to should be our family (I don’t know it would be helpful in a toxic home but naa family toxic kaadu kabatti, it really makes a difference for me).

5. We have to be ready for every problem that occurs for us in the future (ready ante em ostaay ani past mistakes ni analyse chesi, oka plan ni prepare cheskodam kaadu. It drains your energy endukante oka problem ki recovery plan ni set cheskunnaka, inko problem ni vetukutaam. But instead, just be confident in yourself that whatever the problem is, I’m ready to face it. It actually helps).

Ivi realise ayyaanu and also, maa amma meeda nak unna perspective change ayindi.

Inka next 50% of 2026 lo em nerchukobotaano telidu.