r/bondha_diaries

I met my ex today. We are both in the same project.

After a day of talking to each other just as friends, we didn’t even hug each other, no touch.

Last week, my ex told me that he always has a soft corner for me and that he cares about me a lot.

He told me last week that whenever he sees me

or thinks about me, he feels like having sex and kiss me, and that he always feels attracted to me.

Yesterday, after I left, he texted me that he felt like kissing me, that he didn’t hug me when he saw me because he didn’t want those feelings of wanting to kiss and wanting to have sex appear again. He said that he wished we would have had sex and kissed.

But since he has a girlfriend, he told me that it’s better if we kept it that way where we maintain physical distance.

Yeah…

I don’t know what to think.

I have a older sis ,she always had a tough life ,like she didn't have many friends in school ,and interview she joined narayana ,she got bullied by a sir and the students over there ,she worked so hard for jee ,after 12 when she wrote EAMCET she got around 3k rank despite having a system problem,and she took a drop year,she went into depression and couldn't study ,she couldn't crack any exams ,with donation we enrolled her in a college my father was a bit bitter about it ,and ahh college lo kuda she got bullied for her looks ,and couldn't make a lot of friends ,job kuda chala ante chala kashtapadithe internship vachindhi ,now she got a glow up ....but yeah I'm just super proud of her really,I used always wonder why did she have a such a hard life ani ,now as I'm thinking,how strong and brave she is , admiring for courage ,im just understanding there is no use of questioning why is this happening to her , instead im just admiring if she crossed all of them and now in a better place ,i feel God gives obstacles to the people who can get past them ,and God knows how strong she is that's the reason he chosen her ,i always wish her best ,she is a angel in disguise,im so blessed to have her ......

so 6 years back na age vachesi 21 and ma inti pakkala okka inter ammayi undedi and thana 17 so naku line vesedi infact she is good looking so just friends la undevallam and one day she proposed to me i said ok after thinking lot and one day she texted me that she want be physical avvudam intiki ra aninidi and immediately said no because naku bayam because thanu just 17 case avvudi emo ani and immediately thanu katti tho hand photo pettindi nuvu rakunte na hand cut chesukunta ani naku bayam vesindi thanu cut chesukunte nannu bokkalo vestharu ani nenu thana intiki vellanu and we did it. later koddi rojula tarwatha valla intlo thinu evarno love chesthundi ani doubt paddaru but nanney ani telidhu so vallu jaratha padi thanaki balavanthaga pelli chesaru even thanu just 17 ayyina kuda pelli chesesaru nenu happy ayyanu vammo thana torcher poyindi ani thanu konchem manchindi so na midha Poscko case pettaledhu (even though she forced me to do it by blackmailing to cut the hand) so nenu anukunna what if aroju thanu hand cut chesukununte police lu nannu bokkalo pettevaru and what if pelli nundi tappinchukovatniki vadu natho physical ga unnadu even im 17 ani case pettinte kuda nenu bokkolo undevadini so naku enduko idhi unfare ga anipinchindi rules as male ga ....etu chusina bokkolo veyatam pakka

Cheppa kada na previous post lo, chinnappudu andariki cricket bats undevi kaavu, only kontha mandi rich kids daggara mathrame undevi. Bat unnavadi daggara manam chala jagrathaga undali, vaadu konchem hurt ayyina sare, sakkaga bat tiskuni intiki vellipothadu Match madhyalo, vaadiki konchem VIP treatment ivvali. Vaadi demands:

1.Batting first ivvali.

2.Bowling first ivvali.

3.Fieldings cheyadu.

Ayina tappadu, vaadi demands tirchali, or else no bat, no cricket.

Ma chinnappudu kuda ilaage undevallu. Iddaru brothers, peddodi daggara bat undedi, vaalla thammudi daggara ball undedi. So, memantha vaalla inti daggara cricket adevallam. Abba, aa anna-thammula gharshana madhyalo memu naligipoyevallam! Peddodiki chinnodiki asalu padedi kaadu. Inka chuskondi, okkadu hurt ayyina match agipoyedhi. Okkasari Chinnodi bowling lo peddodu out ayyadu, peddodemo 'Rey, nuvvu fast ga vesavu, throwing not allowed' ani bat tiskuni intiki vellipothunadu. Maku mini heart attack vacchedi, vaadini request chesevalam 'Please povoddu, bat ikkade pettu' ani. Akkada chinnodiki mandedi, 'Entra vaadini Bathimaladthunnaru? Vaadu vasthe, nenu ball tiskuni intiki potha' ani. Inka solution enti? Ila chala sarlu naligipoyamu!

Anduke last ki ma dad ni adigi neney bat and ball konnam aa brothers torcher tattukoleka chinnappudu.

Miku relatable aa? Ilanti situation miku jariginda?

Aa paper enti ra babu mental puttinchesadu questions ky sagam questions artham kuda kaledhu
Shitty day extra ga prepare nenu inka kani andaritho patey ochayi marks 🥲 efforts ki kanisam oka 2 marks extra ochina happy untundey Daridram alantidhi le em chestham inka malli rep exam ki Chadavali aney motivation dobbindhi

Recent ga Instagram lo oka trend chustunna. Videos lo ammayilu valla boyfriend ki phone chesthe, pakkala mom undi ani a abbayi chepthe, reply ga ammayi gajulu tisi chupisthundi like "nuvvu gajulu vesuko." Basically, "nuvvu weak/submissive ga unnav, so nuvvu ammayivi" ane type of mockery adi.

Idi chusinappudu, 5 years back jarigina okka incident gurthochindi. Ma friends andaru kalisi okka friend ni cricket adadaniki pilisthe, vadu "ledu ra, girlfriend tho K-dramas chudali, promise chesa" ani cheppadu. Appudu nenu, ma friends kalisi "entra nuvvu ila అడంగిలా tayarayyav, poyi అడంగిలా gajulu vesukuni chira kattukuni intlo kurcho" ani annam. Appudu vadi girlfriend "chira, gajulu vesukunte weakness kadu" ani naku class pikindi.

I am not trying to create a gender war here, just genuinely curious why society treats these two situations so differently. Nenu antenemo tittaru but ammayilu antenemo adi joke antunaru.

aa movie chusinappudu, aa bgm vinnappudu na life lo kuuda adhe scene recreate aitadhi for almost the same reason except for some small changes ani anukoledhu lol.

tinder lo oka ammai match ayyi message chesi, kcr number ivvu, mi caste ey kadha annadhi. Nikem avasaram asalu, nuvvu evaro kuuda telvadhu naaku ante. Nikanna manchi abbai dorukuthadu naaku bye ani cheppi unmatch chesindhi 😑

Adi 2011 March, nenu 7th class chaduvuthunna. Ma class teacher vacharu, telugu madam. I always had a grudge with teachers as I was kind of a "gangleader" to my class. So emindi ante, naku full ga hair undedi. So ma telugu madam, Yera, aa chimpuru juttu cut chesukova, rowdy la unnav anindi. My answer was, Madam, nenu mana India World Cup gelichake cut chesukunta anna. Madam shock ayyindi.

2011 ICC cricket worldcup:-

Idantha enduku chepthunna ante, 2011 anedi mana generation ke kadhu, past 30+ years nundi chala special. Manam World Cup gelichamu and we were very lucky to witness the only World Cup after we were born. I was just 13 back then. Every match chusanu India team edithe undho, adhi GOAT team assalu! And inkoti entante, my favourite player is Yuvraj Singh. Naku ooha telisinappati nunde na fav Yuvraj Singh ye. 2011 World Cup ravataniki one of the reasons Yuvraj Singh with his all-round performance.

Naku inka gurthu, final Sri Lanka midha unnappudu, ma dad and valla friend beer lu techukuni party ki ready ayyaru. Match gelichaka aa santhosam cheppataniki radhu full ga dance chesthu, orantha bombula mota. Aa santhosam lo ma daddy naku, ma brother ki kuda konchem beer posaru. Yeah, I know tappu, and but alanti santhosam adi! And it was my first beer in my life ma mom ithe full ga tittindi ma dad ni pillalalni chedagodthunnav ani. Aa mattulo inka happy ga padukunnam. Morning lechaka edo teliyani happiness, orantha happy ga unnaru. Alanti happy moment witness chesinanduku I was very lucky.

Ma teacher ki mata icchinatte, next day April 3rd, 2011 roju na long hair cut chepinchanu. Literally, next day school lo andaru na kosam waiting, class antha na veype chupu. Ma class boys ithe gattiga aruchukuntu unnaru, class lo! Course, ma class girls ki cricket gurunchi telidhu, chudaru edo vichitranga chusaru mamalni!

2011 summer:-

2011 summer was very special. Actual ga weather antha chala pleasant ga undedi, and 2011 summer lo ithe naku gurthu, chala orumulu, gali, varsham full ga undedi. Even in summer, 2011 was my favourite summer since I was born. Edo cheppalani cheppatledhu, I swear it was my favourite of all time.

2011 movies:-

Aa time lo movies lo unde songs e different asalu. Mr. Perfect, Prema Kavali, Oosaravelli,dookudu.. ee movies songs ekkada chusina vinapadevi. My favourite is Mr. Perfect lo "Akasham Baddaleina" song ithe appatlo ma computer lo daily vinevadini.

Yeah, this is what 2011 looked like.

Honestly just wanted to share this because the satisfaction is unreal.

Two years ago, my family was in a really bad spot financially. Drowning in debt, lowest of the low. There was this girl in my neighborhood I really liked. We were cool, basically friends, so one day I decided to propose to her. She shut me down instantly, no hesitation. The next day she hits me with, "Don't talk to me anymore, my mom told me not to talk to you." It was pretty obvious she rejected me because I wasn't rich.

It felt terrible, but it became my villain backstory lol. I moved to Hyderabad, started my own consultancy a year ago, and worked my ass off. Now I’m making really good money and just bought a Kia car. Since it's a small town, word traveled fast and everyone back home found out I'm doing well.

Out of nowhere, a month ago, she texts me. It’s been almost 2 solid years. She just writes "how r u".

I knew exactly what she was doing. I felt this huge surge of pride, but I didn't want to be petty or start insulting her. So I just silently blocked her without replying. Man, ee feeling entha bagundo seeing someone who threw you away try to crawl back the moment you find success is unmatched.

To top it all off, a week ago her mom casually brings up a marriage proposal to my mom. My mom just looked at her and said, "We aren't planning on marrying our son off for at least another two years."

Absolute mic drop. Success really is the best revenge.

No need to sacrifice u r time and mental peace to solve their problems, when they needed u , u will be there for them but when u needed them they may not do the same . Here it's not expectation but support when needed. What's of point of having a person when you couldn't go to them when things get heavy. I will ask more efforts reassurance because all my life all the people who promised they will be there has failed to keep it. How will trust another person??

If everything ended one day then what's the point of telling u r the best thing happened in my life ? And I don't see any reason to spend time on this worthless friendships . May it's me I am the problem just because I require more efforts and other friends of u require less .

I just possessive type , I don't want to share my loved ones to any other.

To become director for animated films.

Let me come back here after 5 years.

Wish me!!

So yesterday maa nanna and his siblings antha land final ga share cheskundham ani maa village lo meeting pettaru anta, so akkada emaindhi antey andharu share cheskovalsina oka land mottham ni mosam chesi 3rd born guy thana name meedha change chesesaeu anta, and Inka verey land emo Andhariki oka chota equal ga ravalsindhi eeyana mottham main area theeseskuni aayana name meedha maa grandpa brathiki unnappudu blackmail chesi change chepincheskunnadu anta adhi antha ivala thelisindhi Andhariki.

Andharu enti ani adigithey em cheskuntaro cheskondi ani cheppesadu anta 1 vs 4 malli, maa nanna emo sarey odhileyandi nakem avasaram ledhu meerey theeskondi naku ma family ki nenu chalu le na kids valley earn cheskuntarle ani chepparu anta, ma amma ki relatives and ma ammama chepparu, ma amma was like wth, lol, nenemo maa akka tho asalu ah 3rd guy intha la ela plan cheskunnadu athani guts ki brain ki mechikovachu ani antunna, maa akka emo akkada mana aasthi loot chesesthey nuvvu elevations eskuntunnava antundhi lol

Well, asalu manushulu ila ela untaro nyayam ga undochu kadha em saadhistharo ento asalu guilt feeling undava eellaki, ee days manchiga untey brathakalem ani recent ganey ardham avthondhi

this was in 2020. i completed my 10th. corona hit just then. started using instagram. there was this one guy who was 2 years older to me. started talking to him, canon event ig🥲

he actually had a break up and told me all the story about it, saw his photos and her photos too. we were just friendly. he hasn't moved on completely he said. still bro had me thinking about him, well he was sweet and all then. after some days, he casually started ignoring me. like coming up with reasons and late replies and all. then he was gone for days and used to text very occasionally.

then here comes the tea 😭 earlier when we were talking, he went out with his friends and sent me photos of him along with his friends.

then one day after we stopped talking everyday, i got a request from an account that was just made, I was so dumb i must say. i replied and that guy talked so casually and the name thing 😭😭 let's say the first guy's name is xyz, then this guy comes up and says his name is x(which is like nickname out of that name xyz) then he purposely sent photos of him.i saw him earlier in the photos which i mentioned above. dumb me didn't guess it by name, asked him if he knows xyz person. he was like, yeah that's my friend. and then he goes like , oh u know him, and also that XYZ told this guy about me in a very good way and that XYZ has been having some problems personally and that he broke his phone too😭 I believed all of that. he said that XYZ likes me and is intending to tell me one day.

then it's done and one day after everything I saw the original acc of x, and his name was something else. i was- (the realisation)

the two guys were same 😭😭😭 then this XYZ actually used to text me occasionally from his main acc too. dumb me, believed all of it. one day he said he wants to talk to me over a call, parents phone, still i somehow dared and managed to. he didn't talk and said he would call later sometime. that night, had some serious talk, bro was like ik u like me but I'm not a good person and all. never talked again.

sarsarle akkada ayina end ayyindi, lekapothe inka alage picchidanila nammesedanni anni.

Ninna post Esa, 1st day ani eeroju 2nd day, peddaga cravings kuda raavatled, so far so good laa ney undi...

If anyone intrested to quit we can together try tht..

I genuinely feel like some people need to give up on chasing friendships and relationships. Everyone has their own people it's just us who has don't have people. I gave them everything keeping them top of my priority but they chose others who manipulated them , who are toxic , who continuously Blamed them over me . After years of chasing and trying to understand why I don't have friends I finally came to a conclusion that not everyone is lucky in finding true friend . If u r in similar situation just give up and focus on yourself

I have some questions