u/Extreme-Newspaper667

So ma babai is a typical boomer kinda uncle. Manishi parle manchode but he's a complete boomer imo. Ivaala clothes kondham ani i went to zudio with him. And he's like nuvvu chustha undu ani he went to the perfume section near the billing counter. Velli free samples unnai kadha ani anni bottles okko perfume he's like spraying completely all over his shirt. Billing aavida vintha ga chusthundhi entra babu ani. Like i know they are free samples but chethi meedha veskuni we need to smell kadha if we like it or maybe a few sprays over the shirt ala cheyali. I had to call him to get him over to me. Pakkana super market ki velthe he bought one product edho juice and he's cutting the line like billing ki line lo undakunda first place ki Elli oka product ye kadha billing cheyamantunnadu. I told him many times over there ala cheyaru line lo unna vallu erri pappalu kadhu ani. He's like not listening and finally billing last counter lo cheskuni ochesadu. Such an embarrassing thing today I had to face with.

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PS: Self h*rm post aithe kaadhu title chusi.

So naa situation gurinchi cheppali ante meeru dhanush dhi "Thiru" movie chusthe Andhulo oka scene lo someone comments Nithya Menon but he won't say anything to that guy. Pai paiki edho godava avoid cheyyali ani antadu gani but Lopala he's afraid. I'm the same as him.

I don't know if i was born like this or childhood trauma emo gani Chinnappudu nundi my father and mother ki godava aithunde sometimes and he's abusive towards her and used to beat her sometimes. As time lo nenu ila ayyano ledho telidhu but I was too afraid to confront him as I'm a kid at that time. But 18 years appudu godava aina kuda I was afraid of because of my mind or I'm afraid cause of my insecurity like I'm 5"6 and also I'm not fit konchum kuda muscle mass undadhu. so em cheyalem ani oka excuse.

And also na 7th nundi 12 th dhaaka naa best friend kuda whenever someone bullies me vaadu oka vela akkada unte ventane godava ki elthadu naakosam but adhe situation vaadiki osthe i couldn't go. Vaadu adigevadu nannu. nenu emo bayapadda ani cheppakunda I used to brush it off like godava inka pedhadhi avudhi ra ani. Idk why I'm like this. I think okkasari I confronted my bully and I beat him okka debba once 8th lo Anukunta. Vaadu thirigi oka debba kottadu and naaku hands trembling ayyi i started crying and just left the school aaroju.

And then onwards my mindset is like ok aa bully ni em cheyalem friend laga anna nattisthe vaadu kelakadu ani. Aina vaadu chesevi barincha gaani i couldn't rebel. Ippatiki I'm like this very afraid to get into some fight. I owe everyone my mom and my friends every one a sincere apology that i couldn't stand for them when it's time. Naaku unde ee physical appearance insecurities or ledha naa Lopala unde aa inbuilt fear oo ledha ento telidhu gani they are killing me from inside every day and aa previous incidents guilt ippatiki nannu ventadathayi.