Reoccurring memories making it hard to move on with my life
I’m not sure since I’m not diagnosed, but I’m questioning some type of ocd or mental health problem.
As of last year I got hit with intense memories of shame and guilt that led me to a downward spiral. It’s the next year and it’s just been getting worse. I hold a lot of genuine guilt for so many of my mistakes and dumb decisions I made growing up and often keep replaying it in my head or finding some way to mitigate those feelings, which makes me more tense and anxious.
I don’t know how to explain it but it’s just been a hopeless spiral that I can’t talk to others about. I’m scared of therapists, though I can’t even afford one, nevertheless transportation. This is a brief off my chest as it’s hard knowing what I’m gonna do with my life not knowing how to handle everything going on in my memories and mind nowadays. I’m still trying to make things work though, it’s just been a rough week is all.