My Dad sexually assaulted me but im still unsure if it wasn't preventable.
Hello, I have doubts till this day of what happened to me was my fault or It was bound to happen. I'm currently 17 and this happened in 2023 when I was 13. In 2022 when I was on a vacation trip with my dad for 2 weeks, I decided I wanted to come out as trans and pan (at the time) to him and a topic I brought up about having relationships without the need for sexual desires and my dad said it wasn't possible. Fast forward to next year in March, My father came into my room late at night and told me he wanted to show me what cuddling felt like. At first I saw confused because I already knew what it meant and had no intentions of learning how it felt. He told me to unbutton my nightgown which I did..he groped me on my breast and I knew what he did was wrong but I didn't stop him until he asked me to suck on his nipples. After that he told me not to tell anyone.
I know I should believe its not my fault but there's still apart of me that felt I was the reason he did what he did, that If I hadn't mentioned that topic he wouldn't have taken advantage of me.
Not sure what I should really have this flaired as.