Wondering if there is something wrong with me
So for context I have always suffered with extreme anxiety and depression. When I was around 5-6 I thought I was always going to die soon or if I did not do something in a certain time I would die. Once I got older and in my twenties it kinda slowed down but then I had a very very traumatic event involving an immediate family member and ever since seeing that the thought of someone around me dying has never left my brain. It feels like I wired it to remind me at least every 5 minutes that something bad might happen. I always have impending doom. I am on Zoloft and it has slowed down my anxiety and my heart racing but my thoughts consume me and what I witnessed consumes me. I feel crazy and I’ve tried therapy in the past and I just can’t get behind just speaking to someone it does not change my brain chemistry.