It does get better
I don't know why but i felt like sharing this here with you guys since when i was at my lowest this helped me a lot by just letting it out.
Life does get better with time, a few months ago I hit rock bottom, the girl that i loved the most came back in my life but it was not what I was expected and that's fine, it just hit me really bad, I lost my current job because the project I was working on was closing down and I started to gain weight again, tbh I was miserable to the point that I was just sleeping and crying daily.
But now I'm finally not mourning someone that does not care about me and that feels amazing, I removed her from all my socials and I gotta say even though it hurt like hell in the beginning now I finally feel the peace I was looking for.
Regarding the weight I started to do my exercises again and it feels good, still got a lot of work to do but I do feel that I'm moving in the right direction.
I also got another better paying job and its finally in IT, this job will give me the opportunity to travel and even though I'm a bit nervous I am really excited about it. In two weeks from now I will travel to the other side of the country for 1-2 months to fix their systems and I am excited about it, finally getting out of my comfort zone.
So if you are reading this even if you believe me or not it does get better, even if you feel that you are at your lowest and there is no way out, trust the process and push forward because eventually it will get better, don't listen to what I'm saying just do it and you will see.