My guy best friend liked me (18 F) and i didn’t and now I can’t move on!
I (18F) had a guy bsf. So basically we were friends in childhood. Later on we became bsfs. My feelings towards him was purely platonic just the way i felt for my 2 female bsfs. One day he confessed to me and i denied and he understood that and we continued to be friends. But i started seeing him from a different perspective and i thought maybe i like him i just didn't realise it. I shared that with him. He told me he had feelings for me all this while. I told him that let's get to know eo first more as friends and then come into a relationship. One month into it and i knew that i just felt for him in a platonic way. I cared for him and want him to do better in his life but just as a friend. I confessed this to him (took a lot of guts) and he asked to continue as friends at least. I adviced him that it's better that he cuts me off from his life coz me being in his life wont let him move one.
Okay now let me tell he is the sweetest guy ever to exist, has good humor, is respectful, dresses well, good in studies. But i just somehow can't feel for him. So after all this whenever i feel i like someone i dont approach them coz somewhere there is this guilt that i m doing wrong to him. He was genuinely an imp part of my life but i had to let him go for his own good. But now i m stuck and i can't approach people that i like because i feel so god damn guilty.
I genuinely dk if i did smthg wrong or shit!