How do you find actual joy between work and all the forced habits/systems/routine necessary to function?
Consistent exercise, daily meds, breakfast & protein before meds, water and electrolytes so the meds dont dehydrate you, forcing a consistent sleep schedule, meditation, note taking, organization systems, body doubling, work environment optimizing, apps, alarms, tools, screen time limiters, journalling, Dr.s appointments, systems on systems on systems.
As soon as you get into a good routine it all starts to feel suffocating and like a huge long mandatory task list every day just to function. So by the time my meds wear off all ive been able to do is work and do my dumb routines, with no energy or brain power to do things i WANT to do.
Sometimes i feel like with all the time i spend trying to stay on top routines that “help” my adhd, im sacrificing any opportunity for happiness. My choices seem to be unregulated chaos or suffocating monotony.
Anyone figured out a balance?