I took my first dose of ADHD meds today
Hey you lovely people,
I wanted to share something with this community again, because you’ve been so helpful and kind during my late diagnosis journey.
I took my first dose of ADHD medication this morning. At first I felt a little tired, and then, quietly, something shifted. My brain was still. No constant chatter, no background noise, no nagging anxiety. I was less emotionally reactive, and when things went wrong I just… let them go. I also felt gently wrapped in cotton wool. It’s genuinely hard to put into words.
But the moment that made me happiest was unexpectedly small: during my break, I drew a little something for a parcel I had to send out. I’ve always loved art but convinced myself I wasn’t good enough to just do it freely. Today I drew for a complete stranger and had so much fun. No pressure, just joy.
The side effects were real too. A little clumsiness, a mouth drier than the Sahara, and breakfast was a struggle (protein shakes to the rescue, hopefully). I also felt the drop later in the day and know the dose will need adjusting over time.
There’s a small, tender part of me that grieves the lost years. I’ve been seeking mental health support for a decade and nobody caught it. But I’m trying to hold that grief alongside something else: curiosity. A chance to rediscover parts of myself that have long been buried under masking and exhaustion. Old me, new me. Let’s see who’s in there.
Thank you for being such a warm corner of the internet. 💕