Don’t want to work but don’t want to stay home
I’ve been back to work 3 months now and my baby is 8 months old. My calm maternity leave days have been replaced by chaotic work days, drop offs, doctor appointments at 7:30am before work, and working after I put my baby to bed. I work almost entirely remote at a busy small company. Its become pretty toxic with poor leadership and I hate it.
I want more time with my baby. I miss him so badly. I feel like work takes that from me. He’s in a great daycare but every day after drop off is hard on me.
I dream of taking my time and my life back but I don’t necessarily want to be a stay at home mom. i‘d be giving up a lot for that. I like having my own thing. A lot of the time on maternity leave I felt like I was watching the clock waiting for my husband to get home and feeling jealous he was out talking to adults.
what’s the right move for me? I think getting a new job may help. Any advice?