[37/M] [39/F] Feeling a bit out of love with my long time fiance. What is love supposed to feel like?
Been together with my fiancé for 5 years now. We’ve had our ups and downs in the relationship. I’ve grown to even feel bored whenever I’m with her. We don’t do anything new. I find myself wanting to do things by myself. Sometimes I also find that there’s no point telling her things that’s going on in my life.
I see so many posts about people looking at their wife as if they are the most beautiful person in their world. I often find myself questioning if I consider her my best friend. I’m not sure why I feel this way.
We’ve also tried for kids for 2 years now. And it’s been no success. She wants at least one kid. And I want 2. But it’s been incredibly stressful with the whole situation. I need to stay strong for both of us. But I feel like growing up and having just one kid, watching them grow up alone is just too sad. I don’t think I emotionally can handle that.
I do suffer from dismissive avoidance tendencies and depression. But currently, it’s been stressful and I just need advice. I can’t confide in anyone.
Breaking up is not an option. What is love supposed to feel like?