u/Full_Director6577

I don't know why I've always had problems trying to feel socially fulfilled through talking to people when it feels that it's me putting in the effort. I was never taught as a kid how to talk and often isolated in my own shell which made it hard for me to make friends as a kid. Things are better now, but I've always had this weird sensation that socializing is often pointless as I often feel lonely despite trying to surround myself with friends. They love me, but is it too much to ask to feel like I'm needed?