u/Fun-Bass9448

I think the key to keeping a relationship once it’s found is maintaining how highly you value that person. Value their time. Value their attention. Value them as individuals. Value what you built and how it took you to build it. We often forget the beginning of a relationship was trying to show this person your best self, your happiest self, your goodness. And just maybe, if you’re lucky mentally, emotionally, or physically, they would want the same thing too and want it with you.

Somewhere along the way, we get comfortable and complacent. We take for granted the person we used to pray for. We show up, not always as our best selves, because this person loves you unconditionally. We forget so easily that getting the relationship wasn’t the goal but maintaining a happy healthy one was. Where the combination of you two enhances you and your life and enhances how you value it. Because when you value someone and something you care for, it is MORE not less.

It has been quite long since I felt good emotionally, but only the issue is reflecting the same in personality. So, during the day and with people, i am full of energy as if life is great and when i sit alone by myself, flashback of numbers of things ( missed opportunities, heartbreaks, failure, rejections, time wasted on people who once was part of me) run like series of events.

I guess life happened, and i feel like i am behind in most scenarios that people think that i didn't even try without knowing the whole story that will go with me in grave.

Anyway, that's how it feels. This picture clearly reflects the consistent internal emotional battles. I think it is peaceful this way because as soon as i start to open up, unexpected turns take back everything in reverse.

Sometimes,it'ss hard to explain.