Struggling anaesthetics trainee
Hi everyone
I’m a CT2 anaesthetics trainee really struggling. Due to a particular placement plan I have had to rotate halfway through CT2. I’ve just moved hospital and am on obstetrics and CEPOD on calls (which I’d been doing for 15 months at my previous hospital) At present I’m really struggling trying to get my IACOA. I won’t dox myself but in my first week I’ve made a drug error, been singled out for missing documentation (that I missed due to not being used to paper notes whilst familiarising myself with the new hospital and systems), failed multiple spinals and also had a needlestick injury.
Needless to say, my confidence has completely tanked. All my consultants and registrars at my new hospital really scrutinise what I do and I had got used to a level of independence at my previous hospital.
On my main theatre on calls, I’m literally being told at times how to put in an LMA. Today I was doing an arterial line (having done 3 months of ICU and signed off at level 4) and my reg kept saying everything I was doing was wrong even though I was in the vessel. Of course I appreciate I’m very junior but I’m feeling constantly on edge and unable to perform with being watched this closely and my mental health is really plummeting to the point where I’m considering quitting altogether.
How do I get over this and keep moving forward when everything I seem to do is going wrong? I am literally dreading going into work so much that I can’t sleep.