I (24f) have been out of my abusive relationship for about three years now. It’s hard to explain, I don’t miss him, the relationship, the feelings. I don’t miss any of that. But it’s like there’s still this longing inside of me. If I hear an old song that reminds me of that time, I’m right back there. To the point of tears. I thought that by now I’d be totally healed.
It’s all bodily sensation, then the feelings follow. It’s almost like he’s stuck in me and I don’t know how to get him out.
I don’t want him back, I don’t miss the abuse, I just feel a deep connection to what happened to me.
Our relationship was terrible. Extreme psychological, emotional, mental, and physical abuse. I completely lost myself and it took years to build my confidence back up. I went through all the stages of grief. But something still lives inside me.
Any advice on how to truly rid this from me?