1 year, 6 months T1D journey 🩸
It’s been about a year and a half since I became type 1 diabetic and while I’ve gotten much better control of my blood sugar, mentally it’s been rough. I don’t feel like the same person I used to be. Before diabetes, I was a heavy stoner smoking weed and always joking around, working nonstop, and just enjoying life with my friends. Before diabetic me I always used to work two jobs, loved making money because well I liked spending it as much as I did it making it, buying the most stupidest game and unnecessary shit ever (I’m 23) but the biggest lost and pain I felt is welding, the one thing I went to school for and actually accomplished amazing things in it gaining all my certs for MIG TIG STICK AND FLUX I got my osha 30 card as well became certified and understand blueprints like a motherfucker . I was skilled in it unlike the rest of the things I was taught during school and etc so welding became my passion basically and it was one of those saying where if you love what you do it won’t feel like work but during my beginnings of diabetes I was too embarrassed also uninformed to ask for help or file for accommodations, quite frankly my main job didn’t know about my diabetic conditions, I was lucky enough to have a lot of vacation time when I first got diagnosed with type one diabetes but I returned a different man then I was. My 2nd job the part time I left by my own choice as I thought maybe if I had one job I’ll mange and dude was I fucking wrong, I had a high blood sugar moment again and this time didn’t have the vacation time and I was fired for missing a week. Since then I’ve had 3 jobs all of them were part time as I got myself into two jobs again as I was able to line up the schedule so that when the 2nd part time was close to being done I’d be basically only working 2 jobs for 3 weeks and that didn’t work out and I basically relapsed. I’m honestly scared for my future because I want to have a career in welding and I feel like if I can’t keep a regular job how in the flying elephant dick will I keep a high maintenance and skilled job like welding.my work life has fallen apart. It’s made me feel lost and helpless at times, My friends and family keep me going but this disease definitely changed me. Still man I’m trying to keep pushing forward. I won’t give up i know I’m young but I’ll keep working and trying and honestly, fuck diabetes I won’t let it control shit I just don’t wanna die young to be honest, I had this for a one year and a half and this battle has been a losing one, I wanna start winning again. If you read this thank you let’s keep whooping type 1 diabetes ass and not letting it dictate shit.