I dont even know?
What am I doing?
Am I a bad person?
Me and my gf have been together 4 months and I love her very much she's perfect in every way and extremely gorgeous and sweet. but I used to have a good friend awhile ago me and her were inseparable she was the only person I felt safe with, anyway I start to develop feelings for her even tho I thought she didnt like me, then I met my gf who I became friends with and also developed feelings for, anyway skip a few months I confessed to my gf and we started dating, a week after this me and my friend well "fell out"? "stopped being friends"? which is what happened and icl i was extremely sad as I felt no one understood me as much as her, a week after that 2 weeks into me and my gfs relationship one of my friends not too close told me my old bsf liked me and actually did for months and I shouldn't and didnt care bc I was with the girl of my dreams but ever since then idk I dont like her anymore as my gf loves me very much and I do too but its like my brain is forcing me to retain feelings towards her its like I just feel connected? To her in some way idk how to explain itbeven though im sure I dont like her anymore, im just not sure what i miss so much, about her I know that im never going to be that open to anyone again but is that what i miss? Being able to be so open with someone or the way we had a connection ive never had with another friend/person and i want nothing to do with her and this is all js extremely unfair to my gf because we love eachother immensely so someone please tell me how bad of a person I am.