I don’t know what’s wrong with me and it’s starting to ruin my life
I don’t know how to explain it, inside of my body there is this liquid that acts like blood and looks like it but is replacing me with something else. I don’t have any desire for anything anymore, the only way I know I can save myself is to get enough of this liquid out of me but since it acts like blood it might be too much. I use needles to get small amounts out but it’s not enough. It’s cost me a job that took months of struggling to get an interview for, and I’m really close to being put in an institution I just don’t know I’m sorry. They are telling me I might have Bipolar, or schizophrenia or a schizo effective disorder but they just can’t or won’t officially diagnose. Medicines aren’t working they make me restless and incoherent. I’m sorry there are voices in my head telling me it’s ok and to keep the liquid in, there are others telling me to get it out I don’t know who I am anymore