Was 2 months clean had a relapse
I went two months nitrous free and then I went back and binged for a Cpl weeks. I hate how much I have struggled with nitrous. I don’t like to talk about it too much because it’s wreaked havoc in my life. Literally I have so many problems because of doing nitrous. I’ve landed in jail multiple times have so many legal problems and repeatedly brought myself back to square one. I know this stuff is slowly killing me but somehow I still keep going back to it. It’s a vicious cycle I again don’t want to use it anymore ever again and literally battle with the thought of using it all day long every day. Please send prayers my way. The only good thing I have going is work and my dog but the embarrassment of having this addiction is heavy. Any thoughts advice on how I can permanently give this up would be appreciated.