u/Future-Director2528

i am so mad at myself every other two weeks i always lose my streak n it messes up things for me and my so. but i literally have been consuming content since i was 11 ?? it’s like wired in my brain n idk how to unwire it. the guilt makes me so paranoic im so mad i could have been sleeping. i know it would hurt my so if i told him bc we both established this boundary but i keep messing up. i mean its not as bad as it used to be i use to watch every day now its spread out. i’m gonna try to go a month without but usually after a couple of days everything resets. i just am a terrible person. i feel like for women its hard to talk abt cs like more frowned upon